Wednesday

February 17, 2016...


    I'm really bad at getting back into my writing.  Since I have so much going on around me lately I find it hard to have a moment to myself. Wednesdays are the days I get to have a moment to myself.
the girl goes to see her donor and I don't have to pick her up so I get home earlier.
   Today I had to take my loves SUV over to get a chip fixed in the 5 day old windshield. It happened when he was getting off the freeway coming home from work.  Damn work!  Damn rocks on the freeway!! It was free but now there is a chip right in the line of vision.  More his than mine but it's still bothersome.  Since they filled it, it isn't quite as bad but still, doesn't it just figure?! Like when you wash your car and it rains during the night. You never get to enjoy the clean windshield.  It's all back to water spots and road salt. Damn water spots!
   Yesterday and today have been a bit warmer and although clouds are moving in to storm on me tomorrow it is warmer today.  I went out and did a little weeding in my flower bed. So far in the season I only have 3 bulbs coming up that I can see. 2 Hydrangeas and 1 Tulip.  I'm hoping we see more results than that as the days go by and we get more sun and rain.  Sometimes it takes a couple seasons for the bulbs to become acclimated and bloom, but I do hope I get more this year, I so miss my crocus. I only had one at the shack but it was the first flower up every year. It was magnificent!
  Spring is a lovely season that all too soon turns to the heat of  summer. I love summer and can't wait but it too goes so fast. Time speeds up the older you get..  I think...  Or maybe it's the same we are just so busy and stressed out that we don't take time to enjoy anything like when we are young.  I know I don't.  I try to sometimes but find that I'm so confused and stressed out lately that I just want to sleep most of the time. I need a mellow stress free life. Nobody understands that but my kids because they are the ones who have been by my side through the whole graves disease thing. I'm so tired of being sick and shaking oh man the shaking.  I'm having a hard time typing as I write this and I keep having to delete and rewrite things.  Very frustrating.  Every time I start feeling better I get loaded up with stress from those around me and I just get sick again.
   

Thursday

February 11, 2016....


    Midway through February and stress bringing me so far down that I just don't even know if I want to come back up.  My entire body aches, my stomach is always in a state of cramp or nausea.  I need a change.  I need to change some things pretty quick becuase I am so over this stress sickness.
    I'm home today and probably pretty angry what with the feelings of being gutted, but I'm scrolling through facebook, and reading the ridiculous comments of truly stupid people....  as though the actual posts aren't equally stupid.
     "If you love jesus and you want jesus to love you, you will share this post with 12 people, write one word in the comments about jesus and like it or Jesus won't love you".... ummm sorry but Jesus already loves me and proved it long before your lame ass post. so no thanks... of course the rest of society has like, shared, and commented complete essays of their feeling about jesus, and so Jesus better love them the most. ... duh.
    In the same respect that picture you just posted of some ill child that is meant to break hearts, will not die just because I have not shared the post.   I will not have 10 years bad luck if I don't visit the 12 go fund me pages you just set up for your friends.
     One today wanted to know one word about your day... people though think so much of themselves that one word just will not do.  They have to have 10 or 11, a paragraph.... People!!!  Nobody cares about the one word, they definitely do not care about anything after the one word. And if you do it thinking that you are the only one that can think of words for your day, trust me you are not.  We are all capable!