Thursday February 27, 2014....


   Some thoughts..
   10 things to give up in exchange for Happiness


1. Give up caring what others think about you
2. Give up trying to please everyone
3. Give up gossip
4. Quite worrying
5. Let go of insecurity
6. Stop taking everything personally
7. give up the past
8. give up spending money on what you don't need
    in an effort to buy happiness.
9. Give up anger.
10. give up control






  Hmm well they make sense but several of those would be really hard for me. Number 8 for instance .  Do you think they are including the dollar store?  They aren't are they?  Noooo.  I am going to say they mean I shouldn't spend more than a dollar for things I don't need.   That will make me happier :)

Wednesday February 26, 2014....


   Wednesday done and gone and I can already picture leaving work tomorrow, in my head. I feel like the day may be long but it isn't as dreadful if I picture it being over and then focus on that picture.
   I have managed to smile, so far this week, despite the critical error and the write up again.  I swear I don't know what is wrong with me lately but I know I am better than this. Tomorrow I have mentoring and hopefully that will help the time go by. It goes faster when they are taking the calls but I'll take them listening to me it is still something out of the ordinary and makes the time go faster.
   Sunshine was shining on me again today.  Went for my walk and walked as fast as I could for the exercise value.  We had a wonderful dinner as well. I hope tomorrow goes by quickly during the work hours.

Tuesday February 25, 2014....


    7 Rules to a better life...
 1. Never Hate
     (this one is gonna give problems)
  2. Don't worry
      (this one is gonna be a bigger problem
      I worry about everything.)
  3. Live Simply
  4.  expect a little
  5.  give a lot
  6.  always smile
  7.  live with love.
      (again as in 1 gonna be a challenge.)
    I'm thinking not only a better life but one less complicated and that has got to lead to more room for happiness... 

Monday February 24, 2014...


     Monday is gone.  Yay!  Now if I can just get through the rest of the week without getting written up for anything. That would be great.  I don't have much nice to say about my work except their vacation and sick pay.  Other than that it leaves a lot to be desired.
      Either way I have had a good evening since stepping out of the wretched place and breathed in some fresh air walking with daughter. Exercise is a great way to get yourself centered and focus on what's important.  Like laughing with daughter and getting sunshine and fresh air.
      I will have to pray for a better tomorrow because stressing will only prevent me from sleeping.

Sunday February 23, 2014.....


     What a glorious day!!  Happiness is definitely so easy when there is a blue sky and a brilliant sunshine warming the world.  I even a opened a window in my bedroom to air the place out.  I even took off my hoodie and wore only a tshirt most of the day.
      Daughter and I went and got some stickers so I can be scrapbooking my newest picture haul.  It was a fun and relaxing day even though it sped right by.  I'm hoping that we get a few more this week so we can take another walk and get out with the sunshine on our faces.
      I still have to get my car in to get it checked and I should probably do it sooner rather than later. The stresses of life are no fun.  I have been smiling most of the day because of this wonderful sun and spring like feel in the air.
    Daughter even kept telling me how wonderful the day was and it seemed to brighten her mood as well.  The sun makes everything so much better.  The warmth and the light and the blue sky.  I love spring.  I love the sun.  I love that I can smile and feel at peace sometimes.

Wednesday February 19, 2014.....


     Work was long.  very long.  I'm hoping tomorrow is shorter although I don't know how it couldn't be.
      There was a blizzard going on while I was at work and by the time I was off work it was sunny and blue.  The roads weren't even wet.  I loved it!!  I guess there is still a couple more storms in the forecast but I don't anticipate it sticking much.
       Keeping a smile on my face and a peaceful mind.  (trying to calm the madness and have a peaceful mind anyway) I noticed today that I was truly going about my evening with no stressful thoughts of any kind going on.
It was nice.  I hope it continues.

Tuesday February 18, 2014...


      My head is pounding and doesn't seem to want to stop. I have taken Excedrin and hope it stops soon.  Actually my ears are also throbbing so I assume it could be the root cause of the headache.  Tis the season I suppose.  I was giving the daughter more cold medicine before she went to bed as well.  Not fun!
      The workday went fairly well except for a couple snafus but hopefully things will all go well and no errors will come of it.  I am so tired of the same old drill.  Even when I try to do things to get a break I get overlooked or told not now.     Ergh!  Enough about work I'm sure everyone feels the same in one way or another about their jobs.
      I am so thankful that my car is still holding out.  I sent a message to have them contact me for an appointment but as of yet have not heard anything more.  I am praying that it is something that can be fixed so that  I don't have to buy a new transmission and or a new car.  I still owe on my car loan already.  The joys of adulthood.
      Remember how joyous it was to be a child, your only worries were the math test and spelling test and to be home on time for dinner.  I guess today it's be off the video games for dinner.  I remember always having this idea about what it was going to be like being an adult.  There would be such freedom.  I'd be able to do whatever I want whenever I want to do it.  I would be able to live wherever I want and have everything I need.  I didn't stop to think about the bills or even how I'd be paying for it.  See how innocent a child can be.  ha ha  My daughter now is always telling me she wishes we had a money tree.  How many times have we all wished that?
         Feeling kindof peaceful despite the throbbing in my forehead.  That atleast is a plus.

Monday February 17, 2014....


     Here we are half way through February.  I cannot believe it myself. I had a good weekend that I extended into today and got some stuff done.  Like I fixed my Vacuum cleaner.  Alright, alright it was a broken belt but when it broke it melted to the post that it is hooked to and I had to scrape it all off and then put the new one on and put it all back together.  I also changed out my toilet seat although I didn't quiet get the size right and I need to get another one that is the right size. I feel so handy though.   I also unclogged a kitchen sink clog the other day.
      Happiness comes in so many sizes and packages its hard to tell the little things that will  do it.  Doing small home improvement things myself makes me feel like maybe I can really get through on my own.  Now if I can just learn to make a better living and things will be much better.
      Happiness is also not stressing over every little thing.  Things will happen and they never stop changing.  We need to learn to roll with the punches and realize that everything is temporary.  Tomorrow we could all be living a completely different life.  It's how we interpret it that will make us happy or not.  It's all in the mind.

Saturday February 15, 2014....


    Here I am sitting here on my Saturday.  No work, no kids, I don't even know how I feel about it.  I let son take my car to work and now I am stuck here. Alone.
     It's strange how you have a family, then as the days go by and the children grow and the husband decides he would rather have a cheap thrill than the person who has stood by his side for years and poof * you are alone.  I don't know what to do to fill the time.  I don't mind being alone.  I am not afraid to entertain myself.  It's just that I am not used to it and don't know how to fill it. I always end up spending all my time on the computer and then regretting not doing something else.
     The day is warm but the sky is still dark gray and it's saying there is yet another storm moving in to hit tomorrow.  Joy!  I know we need the water but I need sunshine pronto.  Hopefully Spring will be upon us soon. I am ready for blue and sun.
      I really am not sure what I want to do. Read. Watch a movie.  take a nap. Work in my yard. Clean the house.  hmmmmmm
      Maybe I will just putter around the house and appreciate the quiet and nobody needing me for anything.  That doesn't happen often.  Guess I'll take advantage of it somehow.
      What I do know is that I have been smiling since I got out of bed and I really don't know why I'm so calm and peaceful today but I'll take it.  Wish I could be so peaceful everyday.

Friday February 14, 2014....


     Happy Valentines day!  I am so happy it's the weekend and I don't have to work tomorrow.  I really want to sleep in and I'm hoping that I can sleep in for awhile.  Lately I have been waking up at my usual weekday time and that's not fun at all.
      I am going to be getting some alone time this weekend I think. Daughter is at her Dad's house and Son's are going to visit their Dad who is  in town for the weekend. I don't know what I'm going to do with that time.  I'll probably end up sitting here doing nothing.
      The quiet will be nice though. Sleeping will be nice.  Relaxing will be nice.  All those things will probably be really nice.
       I had a good day at work and although I feel the day always drags on forever, I do think smiling and having a good attitude helps make it a little
better.  Smiling also makes you feel better when your ex comes to get your daughter and he is looking completely sad and old and you are there all in your skinny jeans smiling like you don't have a care in the world.  Happiness is a good thing.


    

Thursday February 13, 2014.....


     Happiness is tomorrow is Friday!!  I love Friday.  I don't have to work this weekend so I have it to roam around clean and so on.  It's daughters weekend with her Dad. It's also Valentines day.  I helped daughter with her Valentines cards for school and she made a box for hers.
      I remember Valentines when I was a kid.  We had all kinds of treats and candy and we would have a party the last half of the day. In our neighborhood your friends would bring plates of cookies and valentine cards and leave them on the porch and run away.  You would always wait at the door, wondering how many you would get.  They don't do that anymore of course but it was fun then.
     Keep smiling the weekend is almost here.

Tuesday February 11, 2014 ....


     Happiness I think would be a neck that doesn't hurt when you turn it
and a back that isn't always throbbing.  I'm not sure I'm just guessing since this has been plaguing me all day.
     Happiness is also that moment in the day when you punch off the clock and are finally freed from the prison you work in.  I think the happiest moment of my day each and every day is when I walk out that door and head for my car knowing I'll have my kids and be heading home soon.
     Keep a smile on your face and a thankful heart..

Monday February 10, 2014....


    I wanted today to be full of smiles and happiness but so far it didn't really pan out.  It was daughters true Birthday today.  She had school, I had work.
When I got home I got a long lecture of the days events at home and was told that I was in a bad mood.
    We didn't get to go out for her Birthday dinner because my taxes still haven't come in and I'm hoping for Wednesday.  We ended up having Mac and Cheese but that is what she picked.
    She seemed happy at bedtime and I guess that is about the best I can hope for. I'll be thankful for that at least.
     I'm am going to go to bed being grateful for the end of this trying day and hopefully awake with a better attitude and the makings of a far better day.  Not just at work but all around for all of us.
     

Sunday February 9, 2014.... 


   It's been a very rainy weekend.  The gray clouds refuse to leave.  I can actually see differing amounts of light behind the clouds now so maybe they are finally letting up.  It has been pouring.   I don't mind the rain.  It's 100% better than the snow.
    My daughter's Birthday party is unfortunately still going on.  Her momma will be here soon to get her, just not yet.  I have to go back to work tomorrow and I hope to have a good attitude to do it.
    Attitude is everything.  If we wake up with a smile on our faces and conquer the day with that same smile on our face we should have it pretty good.  I can solve problems better when I'm smiling, my head doesn't hurt as fast or as bad if I keep a smile on my face and it often times reminds me to just be nice on my calls and remember they are calling me for help not to be put down or talked down to.
     Happiness is also about the attitude.  Like today I started getting depressed that it was Sunday, going to work tomorrow but I have to keep the same attitude I had when I started, which was that it's only a short interruption in my day and if I take it one day at a time I will not only be helping to support my family but also I will be to the weekend and will have time to sleep in and do nothing or go out or whatever.
     Attitude.  Only I can choose mine.  What will  you choose?

Saturday February 8, 2014....


   Here I am a very lazy Saturday due to the fact that my health makes it hard to do much but lay around and sleep. I took a dive on Iron today and have had a migraine most of the day.  I took a nap earlier and then lay
 around watching tv and cradling my aching head.
    It still hurts when I cough but is otherwise starting to feel a little better. It is daughters Birthday party weekend and she has had her cousin here since Friday night.  They have been doing really good until the last half hour or so.  Now it's getting late and they need to be getting to bed.   They seem to be having a good time though.
     Making memories.  Playing and getting along.  I remember hanging at my cousins houses for the weekend.   I loved it most times. There were a few bad memories with that but for the most part good times and memories.  I'm glad that my kids have cousins their ages to hang out with and share their lives with.
     One more day off, I wish it were Wednesday night again.  My next long weekend off I believe is Memorial day.  Then it's a three day weekend.  I then have another in July.  I really need to decide what makes me happy and make my living doing that because I need a change and I have a feeling it's gonna be a big change.
    

Friday February 7, 2014...


     It's easy to be happy when there is a smile on your children's face. Today was the daughter's Birthday party.  It was a glowtastic time.  The theme of course was glow and we had a billion glow sticks, black lights, hand decorated glow in the dark t-shirts, pizza, and Chocolate Cake with Cookie Dough Ice- Cream.  I would say it was a success.  All the girls keep telling my daughter how fun her Birthday party is.  I'm just glad they all had a good time.
     It was expensive and time consuming but it is always worth the memories you and the child will have through the rest of your lives. I think that the memories are so important, especially since once we are gone that is what we leave behind for our children.  Always best if those memories are all wonderful and full of love.
     The years pass by so fast and we have such a short time to spend with those children.  Soon they will all be adults with their own stresses and worries.   I hope that they always look back and remember their Birthdays with fondness.
     Should head off to bed so I can rise with the girls and make them some French toast for breakfast.   Each day is another chance to be happy and make yourself and others happy as well. 

Wednesday February 5, 2014.....


    Happiness is blue skies I love them.  Always have.  Today has been a cold day.  I have heard it's from my Thyroid disease that I get so cold.  I haven't researched that but it messes everything else up so why not that as well.  I came home and made taco soup for dinner because that is my ultimate comfort food.
     I am finally warming up just in time to head off to bed. I have taken 2 days off from work so I can clean the house and get the party ready.  It's my daughters 9th Birthday on Monday and her party is going on Friday.
     She is having a glow in the dark slumber party.  Hope it turns out well.  I haven't decided but there may be a piñata.  I have to go tomorrow and figure out what we are going to do for the party.  I also have to pick up some black lights so I can try and get the girls glowing besides just their glow necklaces and bracelets.
     I hope that it all turns out well.  I know it's just a kids birthday party but I always try and make them somewhat memorable.  It's easier when they are older.  I look back at a couple of my birthday parties and remember them fondly, and I want my kids to remember theirs fondly as well.
     Strange sometimes the things that kids remember.  The things that they think back on and love. I know there are some fond memories that they have that I can't even believe they remember they were so young.  I wish there were more though.
     Keep smiling and thinking positive and it won't leave room for the negativity.

Tuesday February 4, 2014.......


     Not feeling happy today but still smiling all the same.  Things are piling up again as far as bills and my child support hasn't made it here yet.  It is always here by the 4th but of course because I need it to feed my kids it is not here.  Probably won't be here for awhile either.
      It snowed again last night and at least they had the roads under control for the morning commute. I was late still but not because of the snow.  I was late because the idiots, oh I'm sorry the lovely people making me late, were all driving 30.  Now I have lived in Utah my entire life.  I know how to drive in the snow but what I haven't figured out is why people go slow when they don't have to and speed when they should go slow... hmmmm... I'm just gonna revert back to the idiots because that's what they are.
       I am very thankful for my family and friends and for the fact that for the time being we are warm and dry.  I don't know what this year will bring but let's hope it brings more smiles than tears, and more happiness than fears.

Monday February 3, 2014....


   Happiness is climbing into bed even if you know it won't be for long enough, and happiness is also knowing, only 2 more days and I'll be off on a mini vacay.  4 days off. Going no where and will be going insane by little girls, but otherwise not going to work so vacay we are calling it.
    Maybe that will keep me going through the next two days.  Smile.  Deep breaths.  Stop stressing because it doesn't do any good and just be happy.

Sunday February 2, 2014....


    The sun is shining through the window, oh happy day!  Sunshine is definitely a key factor in happiness.   It's all just an illusion though it's going to snow later tonight.  1-2 inches.   Hmmm hope not.
     The day is lingering a little but as the night goes on I'm sure that It'll be speeding right up.  I don't want to go to work again because I was just there and I have things to get done for the party.
     Today is Super bowl Sunday.  I don't watch the Super Bowl but I'm rooting for the Seahawks because that's my son's team. It is also Groundhog day and the little bugger says its winter for another 6 weeks.  I don't agree though.  I think that it will come sooner than that because my tulips are right level with the dirt already and I think the plants know better than people.  They are the ones growing in the patterns of the earth.
     I'm excited to get this month over with.  The two Birthdays can be a bit overwhelming.  I also need to get a lot of stuff done on my car to either keep it going  or I need to get it sold or traded so I can have something that is more reliable.  It would definitely be easier to be happy and not so stressed all the time if I am not constantly worried about breaking down.
     

Sunday February 2, 2014....


  'Happy are those who take life day by day, complain very little, and are thankful for the little things in life.'
   Today I am trying to complain very little.  I have complaints about my sinuses, the mess the dog made, the temps, the weather, the snow, etc...
I'm trying to ignore them.  I'm trying to be thankful for the little things.
    The sun was shining when I first woke up.  The snow has mostly melted.
My car is still getting me to and from work.  A new year is upon us filled with who knows what wonderful adventures.  I'm trying to smile.
    If I start to feel grumpy later I'll just go to bed.   Love having days off and being able to stay in bed, it's wonderful.

Saturday February 1, 2014.....


   Sweet Saturday night.   Work was as miserable as I had anticipated but it is over and I won't have to work another one for at least this month.  I have managed to stay awake since I have been home and although I haven't done much I did get my dishes done and made a homemade dinner that was pretty great if I do say so myself. 
    Smiling yet feeling kind of wary about something and not really sure what.  Guess it'll hit soon enough.  I'm finding it difficult to let things go lately and I really think I need to find some energy to start working out again.  My thyroid being dead makes me pretty tired and my medication lately hasn't been doing its thing. I have just been gaining and gaining and I really need to work out but can barely make it through work and home and getting the kids fed and to bed at night.
     I need to find a new Dr. and get my blood checked. Maybe feeling better would help me with my happiness level as well.   Its hard to manage all the mood swings and everything.  Wish they had a miracle Thyroid pill that worked and didn't need to be changed every other month.
     Anyway, working out used to make me feel so less stressed and happier when I used to do it all the time.  It would also help with the clothes situation.  I have tons of clothes and at the moment can fit into very little.
    I read this today "Learning how to let everything be all right is mastering happiness"     ......    I think it's true.