Wednesday October 22, 2014....


    I could go on about the wonderful morning I've had but I'll just say that someone smashed out my side passenger back window during the night. I have my thoughts as to who it was but since there is no proof I'll just move on.  the glass is cleaned up for the most part and I have an appointment to get it fixed at 2.   It will cost us everything we had saved for rent so far but it will be fixed. I don't know what else we would do. I had to take the day off because I don't want my car sitting in the parking lot with no window in it. It's an inconvenience but oh well I'll get over it and move on.
     The day has been perfectly lovely today.  It's a cool autumn day that has a bright sun and yet you can tell it's fall.  It's not the same bright sun as the summer sun.  The leaves are fluttering in the slight breeze and I can smell Halloween.  I need to get planning Jazmins Halloween Party because it's next week.  Yay!!!
       We still haven't heard anything on the house and I'm starting to get really worried about that.   Deep breath.  One more thing I can't do anything about. I need to check into getting a loan of some sort.   We need rent money.
        The kids are doing ok.  Boy 2 is still moping about but was atleast responsive to me today.  The girl is doing good and remains her normal hopeful and cheerful self.  Boy 1 is doing ok as well.  We are all hanging in there with the stress everyone must feel.
      Better days are ahead for us I am going to just hold the faith and know that better days are a head for us.  We are all going to get through this fine.

Tuesday October 21, 2014...


   It's getting a little harder to breathe.  Time just ticking away. Tick. Tick. Tick.  We still haven't heard we aren't getting the house but we haven't been able to move in yet and we only have about 400.  dollars saved. I don't know what we are going to do.  I keep saying I need a second job but don't really want one.  I already have a full time job and I really don't want another one.  If only I could find a way to make money from home.  Real money.  Like a second job I can actually work around my hours and my family.  ahhhh always the dream I guess.
     Things are kinda sad around here due to the fact that there has been another break up.   The whole thing with the house.  Kids wanting cars and jobs and all the things kids want.   I really have no idea how we are even gonna have Christmas this year. Oh well I should be hoping we are moved before the snow flies.
     I don't look forward to the drive I will admit. It's so far out there and it gets crazy heading South.  I'm sure I'll get used to it.  I love the house and feel we were led to it.  I think we could make many happy memories in our own house. I know we have already made many happy memories and this chapter of our lives has only just begun.  It feels like it has always been this way.  so strange....
      The weather has finally started to show fall.  The leaves are fluttering to the ground turning orange and brown and crunching underfoot.  The sound reminding me of a million childhood memories mostly of trick or treat.  Don't enjoy the cold temperatures creeping in but grateful that it hasn't been colder. Still not wearing any heavy jackets and that is something to be thankful for.

Saturday October 18, 2014.....


      Tick Tick Tick  still nothing on the money or the house.  Starting to really get stressed. I'm gonna have to start looking into other places if I don't hear back soon.   I really thought this one was going to be good.  I really like it.
       We went to the Witch Festival at Gardner Village today.  It was really fun.  They had a maze and Giant jumping pillow.  We played a scavenger hunt and ate some cheesy pepperoni bread. They also had pony rides and face painting but we didn't end up participating in that.
      Konner and Jazmin both had a really good time there. I like to do fun Halloween things with the kids. Memories are what they need more of instead of screens and video games.

Thursday October 16, 2014....


    Nothing like forgetting your boss on bosses day. She was in a bad mood all day.. kept wondering why.  I feel like maybe it was a blonde moment or something.  We have plans for her tomorrow though, hopefully I can find a way to get her away from her desk when I get there in the morning.
      We'll tell her we wanted to surprise her instead.  ha ha  I made her éclair cake and we got her flowers and a necklace.  Hope she likes it.
     Can't wait for the weekend.  Think I'll take the kids to the witch festival at Gardner Village on Saturday.   It is supposed to be free with pony rides and face painting, and trick or treating.  Should be a good time.

Monday October 13, 2014....


   I should learn to not take Benadryl on a work night.. I couldn't wake up all day and was working in a daze most of the day.  Not surprisingly I was back up supervisor all day so it wasn't hard to stay in the daze...
   The weather has been great for October and I hope it holds out til we get moved.. crossing our fingers that is soon. Haven't heard back yet but things were sounding good when last I heard.
    Boy 2 has his heart broken again with another girl telling him she wants to date more than one person... he did everything for her and she'll never find anyone as good but her loss I guess.  I'm gonna get me a shotgun!

Sunday October 12, 2014...


    The month is sliding right by.  I haven't even decorated for Halloween this year and was so hoping to decorate the new house.   There is always Thanksgiving I suppose, but Halloween is my favorite.  I still have to get Jazmin a costume.   She is wanting to be a Pirate this year.   I think I'll be a witch or Elvira. We are going to a Halloween party this year so either I'll be sexy Elvira or we will dress as a couple like Dr. and Nurse or Priest and Nun or something.  Not sure it's been a really long time since I had someone to dress up with.
     Kids are all doing great.  Everyday we get stronger together and hopefully getting into a new place will be a whole new start for all of us.
Tayson is hoping to get a job when we get moved and Bailey is hoping to get a new job.  They all want cars, but I would just be grateful to have ours paid for.  We need to get our bills paid and get more money freed up for the house payment.
     As for my sweetie and I we are also doing great. He takes good care of me and is always so loving and kind. I think more and more each day that I don't know how I've lived this long without him, and how I could ever live without him in the future... He's wonderful.

Monday October 6, 2014....


    Well today has definitely been a Monday.  Work was ok short of it being it's usual craziness, I was my usual Monday morning tired. Half way through the day I found that my account was near being depleted and my car payment hadn't gone through.  Got off work deposited a check and made the car payment, back to $29.00.  Cool.  Child support goes in tomorrow.... oh wait, the car insurance hasn't cleared... $153.00, Sweet no problem  that'll clear fine.... where does a parents money go.  I haven't bought myself anything in so long I can't remember the last time I actually spent money on me. I work 40 hours a week and my sweetie has paid my utilities so where is my money going???
    Oh ya food for the teenagers, gas to drive the teenagers around, special body wash for the teenagers... special shampoo for the teenagers, picture day at school for two kids, gas to get to work to pay for the teenagers.... oh please tell me when it ends.
    Other than teenager woes I am doing great and things couldn't be better.  Well if we don't count the days ticking down to homelessness... then it couldn't be better...

Sunday October 5, 2014....


    Just sent paperwork to the potential landlord. Hoping to hear something good this week about the living conditions.   It was a beautiful day and I have just been taking it easy getting the laundry done and going grocery shopping.  I don't like grocery shopping it's expensive.
    I need another job to just feed these teenagers.  It costs a small fortune. The kids are doing good. Daughter has parent teacher conference next week and then Halloween at the end of the month.. Still my favorite holiday.  I also like the changing of the season and the leaves falling and changing colors.  The sound and feel of the leaves crunching under your feet and the smell of not only fall but Halloween.
     Daughter has chosen to be a Pirate this year. Haven't heard anything on the class party yet. Guess when I go to the conference I'll ask about the party and make sure I can help with it.   It is our tradition to do her party and spend the day together and then go trick or treating.  It is our weekend so I'm sure she will have fun trick or treating.  If we have moved she can trick or treat in our neighborhood too.