Tuesday June 24, 2014...


    Sorry haven't been on of late, I have been busy living life.  Strange and bizarre isn't it. I am packing and cleaning and throwing stuff out. People are coming through our house at a rate I didn't imagine.  Not a bad thing really I just don't know where we are going yet.
     My life is so happy lately.  Even with the stress of having people always coming through, and my son hating me and not knowing where we are going to be living, hasn't dented my happiness lately.  My man makes my days so much better.
      Work is going ok and I need to be making more money but at least I have a job and it gives me a paycheck.  Summer is here and I am pretty much out of time off.  I have stuff scheduled that I suppose I could cancel so I have time but we'll see how it goes.   We are going camping close to home this year so that should be ok. I'm taking my birthday weekend off don't really have any plans just not going to work. Love Long weekends so that is kindof a good present to myself.

Wednesday June 11, 2014....


    Well so only two more days until I can hopefully see my sweetie.   This long distance thing is new to me despite my last husband never being home.  I guess the difference is that I actually want to be with this person.
     I miss him so much when he is not here and I can't even imagine what it would be like to have him around everyday.  It sounds like heaven to me.
   I haven't been this happy for a long time even though the days are ticking by and the house will be up for sale and if it sales we have no place to go.  I don't know what we will do.  Still waiting on the money he is supposed to be getting me.  Hope it gets here soon.

Monday June 9, 2014...


   The day at work went by pretty quick.  It was torture for awhile but then we got busy and it flew by.  I have tomorrow scheduled off to get some more done on the house they will be listing it this week.
    I haven't gotten the money from the 401k yet so that I can pay for first and last months rent.  I also need to be able to pay the pet deposit and I don't know how I will keep the rent paid.  I assume it'll all work out.  I have high hopes for my future.
     My sweetheart is wonderful and takes such good care of me. He has done a lot for me this past weekend and although it is not his problem, and although he doesn't have any need to be doing it he just randomly keeps cleaning. He's pretty cute when he's cleaning.  or maybe I'm just not used to seeing that sort of thing.  Either way he's really cute when he's cleaning.
    I don't know how to explain it but he only has to look at me to make me smile.  I am happy by his mere presence and I can't get enough of it. I don't know when I ever felt like this before. 

Sunday June 8, 2014....




    My honey has really out done himself.  He has probably done more for me this one weekend than the ex did in a year. He has fixed my kitchen light, replaced the bulbs in the fridge, whacked all the weeds front and back. Planted plants and flowers, moved his stuff to storage, loaded the trailer to move my stuff to storage, painted the front door cleaned off the cabinets, bleached out the sink, bought me a beautiful flower pot for my porch, and spent time with me. 
    I feel so blessed.  I don't know why we had to wait so long to be with each other but I guess that we had lessons to learn.  I can't wait until all the drama is over and we can live our lives together.
    They are listing the house and putting up the signs this week.  I'm excited and nervous all at once. I don't know where we are going or what is going to happen but I know that everything will work out right.  I can't wait for our future together.  I have been waiting a lifetime to be with my sweetie.  I can't wait to love him for many to come.

Friday June 6, 2014...


   Friday and I still have to work tomorrow. I'm hoping that I get sent away early.  we are hoping to get things moved to storage so should be good times.
   I am so happy I can't stop smiling. My honey comes home in about an hour. I'm pretty excited about it.  My son isn't but I guess it will just take him some extra time since he's extra stubborn.
   the count down begins.....

Thursday June 5, 2014...


   The stress begins.  I have just begun on the house and haven't even gotten anything moved out as far as clutter. I was hoping I would have a couple more weeks to get stuff thrown out.  Not the case. My Bro will be here this weekend to put up the sign and take pics of the house.  I really don't know how those are going to look because this place is a disaster.
    My love will be home tomorrow and promises to help clear some stuff out and get it to the storage. I can't wait until I figure out how I'm gonna pay for my own place, plus I need to find someplace.  But ya let's just put it up for sale this minute.  No stress....
     I am anxious to move on with my life but at the same time I don't know what to do.  I don't want to go to my mom's house because my love can't go there. I mean he can visit but he can't stay there.  This was so much easier when I thought he could go to his brothers house.  I need to find another job.  A second job that can pay rent. I need atleast 800 more a month to be able to pay my own way.  What's that 2 full time jobs?  ha ha no problem.
    I am so happy.  I don't remember being so happy in a long time.  A very long time.  My love makes me smile just being there.  I love doing things with him and for him his happiness makes me even happier than I already am.  He's so thoughtful and sweet. He's very caring and romantic as well.  I just love him.  I am so happy that we are happy.
   

Tuesday June 3, 2014....


    Day off since I work on Saturday.  Don't want to work on Saturday it's going to drain 8 hours of my limited time with my baby.  Oh well gots to pay the bills, always a slave to the paycheck.
    I have been so happy lately that I run out of time in my day before I have time to sit down and blog.  I am getting the house DE cluttered and ready to be put on the market.   I still have a lot to do and don't know why it seems like I've done nothing so far. Tayson has completed the front room, dining room, and started on the kitchen yesterday. It looks so much better.  I still need to paint and do something with the yard.
    The kids are all good.  Today is their last day of school then out for the summer. Lucky's! I wish I was out for the summer!  Oh ya I know, the paycheck.
     Not everyone is happy for me that I am so happy.  My mother says I should concentrate on my kids and not be seeing anyone.  She says I should just be single.  Alone for life like her.  No thanks.  I have never done what I was told and a couple of haters aren't going to stop my happiness train.  My honey makes me very happy and I have waited a long time to be with him.  I want to spend the rest of my days taking care of him.
      It's so strange with him I don't feel like I have to be someone I'm not.  I don't feel like I have to do certain things or do them a certain way just to please him.   I feel so safe just being me. Like he will love me no matter what I do or say.  He also doesn't call me names and make me feel awful about myself for no reason.  He just makes me feel like I can accomplish anything.   I am madly in love with him.  I know I never thought I would be with anyone again.  He's not just anyone though.  He's everything.