November 29, 2016...
Long day at work but it seems as though the evening is just speeding right along. I still haven't gotten my tree up. I usually do it Thanksgiving weekend. Oh well. I'm also putting the tree downstairs this year so that will be different as well.
It's also the first year I don't have to buy toys for any of the kids living here. Konner and Kade will get a toy but otherwise I don't have to buy them anymore. That is also different. I'm trying to think of new traditions I can do now that the kids are all growing up. They don't care about the Night before Christmas story, and the Christmas movies.
So far we have a busy month filling up. We have a couple parties and probably more on the way I don't know about yet. So far it's spread out pretty good and I'm not hosting any of them. Yay me!
The weather has gotten cold here in Utah. The snow has fallen and blanketed the mountains, bringing joy to all the skiers. We had more snow yesterday than today and are expecting another storm on Thursday. Yay! People need to remember how to drive in it though. Already so many accidents. Slow down people!! I do like the serenity that a snow storm brings. I find it so peaceful to just sit and watch it fall around me. It's so beautiful during the storm and seems to be so quiet while it's falling. Being in the mountains while it storms is the best. Not being much of a skier I wish it would snow only in the mountains and not in the valley ever. That would be great!!!
Tuesday, November 29, 2016
Monday, November 21, 2016
Monday
November 21, 2016...
Today has been wet all day. With the wet of course also comes cold with dark gray clouds spread before us. This is not my weather. I need sunshine for at least a bit. I cannot have dark all day long, it makes me want to roll up in a blanket and climb back into bed. I of course had to work all day. Traffic was traffic in Utah. Everyone panicking because there is water on the roads.. looking forward to the snow.
Once at work I always feel as though the prison doors have just closed. Chain myself to my desk and I'm there for the long haul. I wish I made more money. I know I don't do much of anything but I feel since I'm chained to the computer (or more accurately the phone) I should get paid more for my time. Hopefully someday soon I'll be able to move up. Maybe when J starts going to school out here I can find a job that is closer and I won't have to worry about traffic so much. For now though I hate it and no matter how I try, I always make it home with plenty of road rage. The flip side to that though is that I'm always so grateful to see my house that I can barely stand it. I'm pretty sure I'm a hermit.
The fam is all doing good. Thanksgiving is coming up and we are doing our annual two dinners. Wish us luck. I'm really needing to get all the fixings and not really sure when I'm gonna get money to do it. Hoping I get a deposit tomorrow so that the shopping will happen. Otherwise people might have to bring more than they really want.
I wish I could find some energy. Energy drinks and coffee don't really seem to do anything for me since I have Dr. Pepper for blood. Ha! I need to be working out and I also need to be cleaning my house getting ready for everyone to get here. I know it will all go over great and I'm hoping we don't get any bed bugs from them. Maybe we can vacuum the furniture and floors when they leave in hopes nothing survives long enough to lay eggs. Good times!!
Today has been wet all day. With the wet of course also comes cold with dark gray clouds spread before us. This is not my weather. I need sunshine for at least a bit. I cannot have dark all day long, it makes me want to roll up in a blanket and climb back into bed. I of course had to work all day. Traffic was traffic in Utah. Everyone panicking because there is water on the roads.. looking forward to the snow.
Once at work I always feel as though the prison doors have just closed. Chain myself to my desk and I'm there for the long haul. I wish I made more money. I know I don't do much of anything but I feel since I'm chained to the computer (or more accurately the phone) I should get paid more for my time. Hopefully someday soon I'll be able to move up. Maybe when J starts going to school out here I can find a job that is closer and I won't have to worry about traffic so much. For now though I hate it and no matter how I try, I always make it home with plenty of road rage. The flip side to that though is that I'm always so grateful to see my house that I can barely stand it. I'm pretty sure I'm a hermit.
The fam is all doing good. Thanksgiving is coming up and we are doing our annual two dinners. Wish us luck. I'm really needing to get all the fixings and not really sure when I'm gonna get money to do it. Hoping I get a deposit tomorrow so that the shopping will happen. Otherwise people might have to bring more than they really want.
I wish I could find some energy. Energy drinks and coffee don't really seem to do anything for me since I have Dr. Pepper for blood. Ha! I need to be working out and I also need to be cleaning my house getting ready for everyone to get here. I know it will all go over great and I'm hoping we don't get any bed bugs from them. Maybe we can vacuum the furniture and floors when they leave in hopes nothing survives long enough to lay eggs. Good times!!
Sunday, November 20, 2016
Sunday
November 20, 2016...
Having a perfectly lovely day doing nothing. I should be out pulling weeds and covering it with top soil but I have no money. I'm tired of having no money. I need to get off my butt and start doing some of the paid writing jobs in my time at home. I could use my sitting on Netflix wasting my life time. Some of them that I have seen pay 20 a month some are 50 and up. If I could get a few a month I could have some extra money to get bills paid and a savings built up again.
The weekend goes way to fast. Last night we had my work Christmas party. It was pretty good. It was at the Hilton and we had Chicken, roast tips, mashed potatoes, vegies, salad and cheesecake or chocolate mousse cake. That one was too rich for me but the cheesecake was delicious. There was a magician but I didn't think he was as good as the hypnotist they had last year. He was awesome. I got picked in the drawing and got $100 gift card. We then went to one of our friends Birthday/house warming party. He was pretty toasted by the time we got there. They have a lovely house. It has a castle in the backyard for the kids made of wood. It has a huge yard and space for a garden. We are happy for them.
Got home late and slept in til almost noon. I have done laundry and got a roast in the crock pot but otherwise haven't done much of anything. I worked out a little bit but get frustrated at how quickly I run out of breath. I am so out of shape. I need to keep at it if I want to see results though.
Thanksgiving is this week and we have the Kern clan coming over as usual. It's MiMis birthday on the 27th so I probably should bake her a cake, either that or I'll make B and J make some like they did last time we had the combo party. We will be serving dinner for about 25 or more people and I hope we have enough time to get all the food. I'm praying I get paid a day early so I can go to the store and get the vegies and whip cream and more pies to feed everyone. I have already bought the rolls and a few pies, plus the olives. Holidays are so expensive. Hopefully I'll somehow win some more gift cards in the next couple days. I may at this point be able to get K's entire Christmas free with the gift cards I have saved so far.
Having a perfectly lovely day doing nothing. I should be out pulling weeds and covering it with top soil but I have no money. I'm tired of having no money. I need to get off my butt and start doing some of the paid writing jobs in my time at home. I could use my sitting on Netflix wasting my life time. Some of them that I have seen pay 20 a month some are 50 and up. If I could get a few a month I could have some extra money to get bills paid and a savings built up again.
The weekend goes way to fast. Last night we had my work Christmas party. It was pretty good. It was at the Hilton and we had Chicken, roast tips, mashed potatoes, vegies, salad and cheesecake or chocolate mousse cake. That one was too rich for me but the cheesecake was delicious. There was a magician but I didn't think he was as good as the hypnotist they had last year. He was awesome. I got picked in the drawing and got $100 gift card. We then went to one of our friends Birthday/house warming party. He was pretty toasted by the time we got there. They have a lovely house. It has a castle in the backyard for the kids made of wood. It has a huge yard and space for a garden. We are happy for them.
Got home late and slept in til almost noon. I have done laundry and got a roast in the crock pot but otherwise haven't done much of anything. I worked out a little bit but get frustrated at how quickly I run out of breath. I am so out of shape. I need to keep at it if I want to see results though.
Thanksgiving is this week and we have the Kern clan coming over as usual. It's MiMis birthday on the 27th so I probably should bake her a cake, either that or I'll make B and J make some like they did last time we had the combo party. We will be serving dinner for about 25 or more people and I hope we have enough time to get all the food. I'm praying I get paid a day early so I can go to the store and get the vegies and whip cream and more pies to feed everyone. I have already bought the rolls and a few pies, plus the olives. Holidays are so expensive. Hopefully I'll somehow win some more gift cards in the next couple days. I may at this point be able to get K's entire Christmas free with the gift cards I have saved so far.
Saturday, November 19, 2016
Saturday
November 19, 2016....
Today is a beautiful fall day. In fact if there weren't fall leaves blowing all over the lawn it would seem like spring as mello as the temperatures are. I have had the house all to myself today as my love has been helping a friend get ready to move into a new place of his own. I've spent it cleaning and getting ready to go to my work holiday party tonight. I can't believe it's even time for that yet. I haven't bought anybody anything for Christmas yet. I don't even know what to buy for my love. He likes getting tools but I'm not really sure what tools he still needs. I can't afford a table saw although he would love one. I'll think of something. J is getting so big and she just wants stuff for her bedroom and maybe clothes or jewelry and makeup. I'm not sure about the makeup she's still so young but for her birthday she gets a phone and I just got her set up on facebook, under my email so I know who is trying to friend her but otherwise I like sending her pics of cute animals. Plus it gives me another way to get in touch with her. She can text me on messenger. Technology today. When I was a kid I had a phone with a cord and although I could reach it into my room my parents could always listen in on the line upstairs which also was attached to the wall. Ahhh the good old days when you could slam the phone down on someone.
Today has been lovely having time just to myself. I haven't done much cleaning but I'm sure my love won't care and it does look better than when he left. I think all he cares about is that he doesn't have to do it all. He can come home from work and have dinner to eat and not have to make it or go get it. He can have a clean house without having to do all the work himself. He likes that. I hope I make him as happy as he makes me.
I love the holidays starting with my favorite holiday Halloween but I really don't like the stress of having no money for gifts. Maybe someday I'll be debt free and be able to have a lovely Christmas but until then I'm not racking up more debt just for presents. We will make due again this year and hope for a more financially stable year next year. That's coming up soon and always makes me feel like there's hope for a better future.
I sure miss T. He's living his life in Oregon and I guess he's happy but I haven't heard from him so who knows. Miss his face and his smile and his help with dishes and chores. Hope he's doing good and being happy.
The rest of us are all just waiting for Thanksgiving. Gobble Gobble good stuff,.
Today is a beautiful fall day. In fact if there weren't fall leaves blowing all over the lawn it would seem like spring as mello as the temperatures are. I have had the house all to myself today as my love has been helping a friend get ready to move into a new place of his own. I've spent it cleaning and getting ready to go to my work holiday party tonight. I can't believe it's even time for that yet. I haven't bought anybody anything for Christmas yet. I don't even know what to buy for my love. He likes getting tools but I'm not really sure what tools he still needs. I can't afford a table saw although he would love one. I'll think of something. J is getting so big and she just wants stuff for her bedroom and maybe clothes or jewelry and makeup. I'm not sure about the makeup she's still so young but for her birthday she gets a phone and I just got her set up on facebook, under my email so I know who is trying to friend her but otherwise I like sending her pics of cute animals. Plus it gives me another way to get in touch with her. She can text me on messenger. Technology today. When I was a kid I had a phone with a cord and although I could reach it into my room my parents could always listen in on the line upstairs which also was attached to the wall. Ahhh the good old days when you could slam the phone down on someone.
Today has been lovely having time just to myself. I haven't done much cleaning but I'm sure my love won't care and it does look better than when he left. I think all he cares about is that he doesn't have to do it all. He can come home from work and have dinner to eat and not have to make it or go get it. He can have a clean house without having to do all the work himself. He likes that. I hope I make him as happy as he makes me.
I love the holidays starting with my favorite holiday Halloween but I really don't like the stress of having no money for gifts. Maybe someday I'll be debt free and be able to have a lovely Christmas but until then I'm not racking up more debt just for presents. We will make due again this year and hope for a more financially stable year next year. That's coming up soon and always makes me feel like there's hope for a better future.
I sure miss T. He's living his life in Oregon and I guess he's happy but I haven't heard from him so who knows. Miss his face and his smile and his help with dishes and chores. Hope he's doing good and being happy.
The rest of us are all just waiting for Thanksgiving. Gobble Gobble good stuff,.
Tuesday, November 15, 2016
Tuesday
November 15, 2016...
Another day gone. Glad to be getting closer to the weekend again. I don't have many plans just the holiday party for my work. It's at the Hilton. Free food and entertainment. should be fun if the magician is anything like the guy they had last year. He was a hypnotist. It was a hoot.
Thanksgiving is next week. We will of course have a full house yet again this year. Even more full than last year. I'm almost glad we do a second dinner just so I can have some peace. This year we may be going to three dinners which I really don't like doing. It's just to much. I don't know why we can't either do every other year or something. I get tired of having to have two or three of everything just to spend the holidays with the whole family.
Everything is good here. B might come home this semester and work to save money for school. She doesn't have the money to pay for this semester let alone next. Hopefully she will see reason and go to SLCC for a while. It would be a smart move. K is still leaving here and doesn't seem to be making any head way in leaving. Guess I'm gonna need to talk to him again about the whole thing.
After the holidays I guess we are raising the rent and hopefully that will give him the incentive to get moved out and on his own. I would be happy if he would just get a full time job so he can start supporting himself. Why aren't kids as excited to be on their own as I was? I couldn't wait to have my own life. Guess I'm not as bad a parent, they don't want to get away from me. ha ha
Another day gone. Glad to be getting closer to the weekend again. I don't have many plans just the holiday party for my work. It's at the Hilton. Free food and entertainment. should be fun if the magician is anything like the guy they had last year. He was a hypnotist. It was a hoot.
Thanksgiving is next week. We will of course have a full house yet again this year. Even more full than last year. I'm almost glad we do a second dinner just so I can have some peace. This year we may be going to three dinners which I really don't like doing. It's just to much. I don't know why we can't either do every other year or something. I get tired of having to have two or three of everything just to spend the holidays with the whole family.
Everything is good here. B might come home this semester and work to save money for school. She doesn't have the money to pay for this semester let alone next. Hopefully she will see reason and go to SLCC for a while. It would be a smart move. K is still leaving here and doesn't seem to be making any head way in leaving. Guess I'm gonna need to talk to him again about the whole thing.
After the holidays I guess we are raising the rent and hopefully that will give him the incentive to get moved out and on his own. I would be happy if he would just get a full time job so he can start supporting himself. Why aren't kids as excited to be on their own as I was? I couldn't wait to have my own life. Guess I'm not as bad a parent, they don't want to get away from me. ha ha
Friday, November 11, 2016
Friday
November 11, 2016....
It's Veterans day today so needless to say I got off work at 9:50. Half my shift and only took about 12 calls. Such a good time. Not! It does however leave me time to sit and think about all the things I would rather be doing at home. Sleeping.... cleaning.... scrapbooking.... pulling weeds... that's my brain all day long.
Now I am home and hoping to get something done before I have to go and get my J from school. I almost went and checked her out but didn't know if she was working on anything important today so I decided against it. I'll get something done and then go get her.
Today is a beautiful fall day. The sun in shining. The sky is blue and cloudless. The smog is in place huddled down close over the valley. The temperatures today are supposed to reach 68 with a low tonight of 42 and more sun tomorrow. I hope this last all into December. I can do without winter. There are some people in the world who have never seen snow. I envy them. I guess it's pretty but then it gets dirty and gross looking. It's cold and icy and dangerous. Plus you have to wear coats to stay warm and they are so bulky. Especially when you are in the car driving. I dislike it. I so much prefer the sunshine and warmth of spring and summer.
Thanksgiving is coming up in two weeks. I've no idea what we are going to do with my mom or if we are even having people over from my loves family. Maybe I can just invite my mom to my house and call it a day. Hope we get info on it soon because I have to do the shopping.
The election was held the other day and Trump took it. It was bittersweet. I'm scared he doesn't know how to be President but on the other hand did not want Clinton. I'm over it though and willing to give him a chance. The Clinton supporters however, are sitting around crying, unable to handle that their candidate didn't win. They want a do over. Or lets get rid of the electoral college just so we can try and win that way. People are so distraught and it's ridiculous. Nobody acted like this when Obama was elected the second time. Ya there was unhappy people, but again, no riots. No hate crimes and burning of the flag. It's embarrassing to our country. I just want to reiterate that I dislike people. Not all people just most of them. No certain race. I dislike them equally. But it's exactly these reasons that I am like that. They say Trump is violent and racist yet the Clinton supporters are out vandalizing, threatening him, burning the flag, degrading whites simply because they are white so the "assume" we all voted for Trump. Guess what all white people did not vote for Trump, but I myself know several people of different race who did vote for him. Why is it that anyone can be racist against whites and it's ok? I just want them all to shut up and realize he is the president and they cannot act like that. You are free to your opinion but you are not free to push it onto the rest of humanity. We all share that right. Now that Clinton is out of the picture we can rest assured that at least for now our constitution will remain in tact. While I didn't vote for him I am willing to move on and give him a shot to make some changes. We will pray they are for the better and not the worse.
It's Veterans day today so needless to say I got off work at 9:50. Half my shift and only took about 12 calls. Such a good time. Not! It does however leave me time to sit and think about all the things I would rather be doing at home. Sleeping.... cleaning.... scrapbooking.... pulling weeds... that's my brain all day long.
Now I am home and hoping to get something done before I have to go and get my J from school. I almost went and checked her out but didn't know if she was working on anything important today so I decided against it. I'll get something done and then go get her.
Today is a beautiful fall day. The sun in shining. The sky is blue and cloudless. The smog is in place huddled down close over the valley. The temperatures today are supposed to reach 68 with a low tonight of 42 and more sun tomorrow. I hope this last all into December. I can do without winter. There are some people in the world who have never seen snow. I envy them. I guess it's pretty but then it gets dirty and gross looking. It's cold and icy and dangerous. Plus you have to wear coats to stay warm and they are so bulky. Especially when you are in the car driving. I dislike it. I so much prefer the sunshine and warmth of spring and summer.
Thanksgiving is coming up in two weeks. I've no idea what we are going to do with my mom or if we are even having people over from my loves family. Maybe I can just invite my mom to my house and call it a day. Hope we get info on it soon because I have to do the shopping.
The election was held the other day and Trump took it. It was bittersweet. I'm scared he doesn't know how to be President but on the other hand did not want Clinton. I'm over it though and willing to give him a chance. The Clinton supporters however, are sitting around crying, unable to handle that their candidate didn't win. They want a do over. Or lets get rid of the electoral college just so we can try and win that way. People are so distraught and it's ridiculous. Nobody acted like this when Obama was elected the second time. Ya there was unhappy people, but again, no riots. No hate crimes and burning of the flag. It's embarrassing to our country. I just want to reiterate that I dislike people. Not all people just most of them. No certain race. I dislike them equally. But it's exactly these reasons that I am like that. They say Trump is violent and racist yet the Clinton supporters are out vandalizing, threatening him, burning the flag, degrading whites simply because they are white so the "assume" we all voted for Trump. Guess what all white people did not vote for Trump, but I myself know several people of different race who did vote for him. Why is it that anyone can be racist against whites and it's ok? I just want them all to shut up and realize he is the president and they cannot act like that. You are free to your opinion but you are not free to push it onto the rest of humanity. We all share that right. Now that Clinton is out of the picture we can rest assured that at least for now our constitution will remain in tact. While I didn't vote for him I am willing to move on and give him a shot to make some changes. We will pray they are for the better and not the worse.
Monday, November 7, 2016
Monday..
November 7, 2016....
Welcome to Monday and what a Monday it has been. We were busy at work and for awhile I had to take the other call type that I hate taking, it actually wasn't too bad today and I got a lot of calls for the time I was on them so it made time fly. They switched me back about an hour later and took my own calls the rest of my shift. Hopefully that will leave me safe the rest of this week. We shall see they haven't been rotating very well lately. Made it through my entire shift and wasn't feeling sick until I came home. Good timing I guess.
The time change happened this weekend and I tell you I really despise having the sun going down at 3 o'clock in the afternoon. It was getting so low already it was in my eyes blinding me the entire drive home. I like night time but I don't like the constant dark. Early nights, gray clouds, cold, ice, wet, dangerous... oh how I dislike winter. Today it was a pleasant 62 degrees here in Utah and although I spend most of my time indoors freezing to death it was nice while driving home. I dropped off my ballot and hit the freeway and it wasn't as bad as it usually is but I'm thinking that I probably just got there in between accidents. Yay me!
Now I am home and have to make dinner which isn't really thrilling me. I don't want to clean up the kitchen and cook dinner so that I can clean up the kitchen again. I'm too lazy. Wish I could tell a robot what to make and it would just do it for me. Wouldn't that be nice?
Glad today is over and already can't wait for tomorrow to be over as well. It's gonna be crazy finally knowing which special person is going to win the election this year. Will we be the laughing stock of the world or will be utterly screwed over with the demon witch? We will all have to stay tuned to find out but to tell the truth although I didn't give my vote to either of them, I'm hoping that Trump (I don't think my person stands a chance) will beat Hillary. I really, really hate her. Even her husband chooses other people ha ha anyway that's just my opinion and I'm nobody so I realize it doesn't matter but there it is. On the edge of my seat waiting to see what happens as I'm sure everyone in the world is. Tomorrow will surely be legendary our downfall or our downfall.... fun.
I'll still be doing my usual. Working for nothing, picking up my daughter, and coming home to vegetate in my home until I'm forced to leave for another day of servitude. Oh us Americans know how to live don't we?
Welcome to Monday and what a Monday it has been. We were busy at work and for awhile I had to take the other call type that I hate taking, it actually wasn't too bad today and I got a lot of calls for the time I was on them so it made time fly. They switched me back about an hour later and took my own calls the rest of my shift. Hopefully that will leave me safe the rest of this week. We shall see they haven't been rotating very well lately. Made it through my entire shift and wasn't feeling sick until I came home. Good timing I guess.
The time change happened this weekend and I tell you I really despise having the sun going down at 3 o'clock in the afternoon. It was getting so low already it was in my eyes blinding me the entire drive home. I like night time but I don't like the constant dark. Early nights, gray clouds, cold, ice, wet, dangerous... oh how I dislike winter. Today it was a pleasant 62 degrees here in Utah and although I spend most of my time indoors freezing to death it was nice while driving home. I dropped off my ballot and hit the freeway and it wasn't as bad as it usually is but I'm thinking that I probably just got there in between accidents. Yay me!
Now I am home and have to make dinner which isn't really thrilling me. I don't want to clean up the kitchen and cook dinner so that I can clean up the kitchen again. I'm too lazy. Wish I could tell a robot what to make and it would just do it for me. Wouldn't that be nice?
Glad today is over and already can't wait for tomorrow to be over as well. It's gonna be crazy finally knowing which special person is going to win the election this year. Will we be the laughing stock of the world or will be utterly screwed over with the demon witch? We will all have to stay tuned to find out but to tell the truth although I didn't give my vote to either of them, I'm hoping that Trump (I don't think my person stands a chance) will beat Hillary. I really, really hate her. Even her husband chooses other people ha ha anyway that's just my opinion and I'm nobody so I realize it doesn't matter but there it is. On the edge of my seat waiting to see what happens as I'm sure everyone in the world is. Tomorrow will surely be legendary our downfall or our downfall.... fun.
I'll still be doing my usual. Working for nothing, picking up my daughter, and coming home to vegetate in my home until I'm forced to leave for another day of servitude. Oh us Americans know how to live don't we?
Sunday, November 6, 2016
Sunday
November 6, 2016....
A very lazy weekend. We haven't gone anywhere or seen anyone. Watched a movie Friday night from redbox. cleaned yesterday and watched a movie on Netflix. Today I pretty much laid around all day watching criminal minds. I kindof regret not doing something but oh well there is always tomorrow I suppose.
The girl will be home in a few hours and then it'll be the start of the weekly grind. I'm already looking forward to next Friday. I don't think you should really hate your job so bad that you ruin your weekend dreading it to come. Oh well nothing is perfect in this crazy world
A very lazy weekend. We haven't gone anywhere or seen anyone. Watched a movie Friday night from redbox. cleaned yesterday and watched a movie on Netflix. Today I pretty much laid around all day watching criminal minds. I kindof regret not doing something but oh well there is always tomorrow I suppose.
The girl will be home in a few hours and then it'll be the start of the weekly grind. I'm already looking forward to next Friday. I don't think you should really hate your job so bad that you ruin your weekend dreading it to come. Oh well nothing is perfect in this crazy world
Saturday, November 5, 2016
Saturday
November 5, 2016....
In just a couple days the madness will end and we will have a new president for worse or worst. I
don't like either of the choices but feel she's the worst one. She had her chance while her husband was in office and busy screwing his interns. Even he was choosing someone else. He's probably not even voting for her. Im not. I did register to vote but I don't know where to go and I never got any confirmation that I registered. I'll have to ask my mom because she will know. They said they had to
use what was on your drivers license so that's her address.
Fall is here and the leaves are making my yard feel like thanksgiving. I'm not sure what we are doing as far as my mom. I feel like she should be able to go to dinner with me at my brothers house but she doesn't like being around my dad and his wife. Forgive and let go I say. I love thanksgiving
and cooking Dinner and hosting dinner. I love that my love doesn't just sleep on the couch all day only getting up to eat and then retreat for a nap before eating dessert and going back to sleep while I do I'll the cooking and the clean up. He helps clean the house sparkly and helps cook the turkey and all the other sides.
I must admit I unblocked my ex and got on his facebook the other day. I wanted to know if he was friends with J on hers. I don't want him seeing anything to do with me. I don't even like him being by my property when he picks her up and drops her off. I found it intriguing how he has been to slcc and how he posts things about how if someone is a cheater they are in a relationship when the one who isn't cheating is trying to pick up the pieces and heal. I wondered if he was hurt by someone and I hoped he was. Can't wait to block him again but I have to wait until tomorrow. I never realized how much damage he had done to me until L showed me. I'm glad I have finally gotten the help I needed and am feeling better and more courageous to defend myself when needed.
The holidays are upon us and it's making me feel really grateful for many things. I haven't been playing the game on facebook but may do so the last week or so before Thanksgiving. I can tell you I have been thankful for so many things lately and first and foremost that is my love. He is not only gorgeous and sexy, but he is funny, smart productive a most wonderful provider, takes really good care of me both when I am sick and when I am well. He doesn't judge me when I make mistakes and he is always ready to hold me in his arms. He comes home from a long day at work and doesn't just expect dinner and fall asleep on the couch. He helps make dinner. He asks how my day was. He asks J how her day was. He gives me a big hug and kiss and I welcome it. I am grateful for his constant help around the house and for his listening ear when I need it and his helping hand when I need that as well. I am grateful for his never ending love for me. I am grateful for my children and even when we don't see eye to eye I'm am proud of them all. T is doing good in Oregon. K still doesn't have full time but is working more hours and paying his phone bill steadily, as well as his rent. I need to break the news that if he's still living here in January the rent is going up. My love wants to raise it to 400 but I think 300 is fine. That gives me 50 dollars help with groceries and 50 dollars for his phone then 200 dollars to help with the mortgage. So far I am keeping 100 and he is only getting 100 to help with the rent. It's just not enough. (or so he says)
I'm hoping for Christmas to spend at least 50 on all the kids. I'm talking the big ones because J will probably have a little more spent on her since she still (at the age of 11) believes in Santa. There are some things she has asked for like a bed set and stuff to decorate and organize her room. She's getting so big she didn't ask for any toys at all. It's like she's a teenager already.
Last year I think we were able to get them all some money but I wanted to do more than just the stockings. Although I still want to have the stockings for them too. This year I want to be even more prepared for Christmas by having a brunch. J is with her Dad and won't be home until around 11. We get to sleep in. I'm psyched. I may go and get my mother though and have her come for a bit and eat with us. Then I would like to also have maybe (don't know if I'll be up to it emotionally or financially) but a Christmas party with my loves family would be fun. I want to get his mom something she will like. Something Elvis or Froggy. Her apartment complex is infested with bed bugs and they aren't doing anything about it. I feel like calling the board of health to go and check it out. I find it to be disgusting. Even if we pay to have her apartment treated it's all over so she'll just get them again. I don't want them again ever!!!
I am also grateful for my home. My love and I try to keep it clean as we can and since it's a mansion compared to what I am used to it is not cluttered like my other homes were. It is refreshing to come home each day and I am grateful every day that we were able to get it. I think the best thing about it though is that it is mine with my love. This is where he comes home each night. I love him.
I'm grateful for my job even though it frustrates me and the insurance and atmosphere is going down hill. They can't keep tenured employees and I think my team has the most tenured employees in the building beside custom and leadership. Sad I think. It used to be fun. I'm grateful for Jesus dying for my sins on the cross so that I too may be forgiven. I'm grateful for prayer and for him giving me my love when I asked for him to give me who he made for me. I'll never leave him ever. He'll have to leave me because as far as I'm concerned he's my better half and I can't live without him. I'll have more to tell you about my gratitude as the days go on. Right now Im grateful for the wine I've probably had too much of...
In just a couple days the madness will end and we will have a new president for worse or worst. I
don't like either of the choices but feel she's the worst one. She had her chance while her husband was in office and busy screwing his interns. Even he was choosing someone else. He's probably not even voting for her. Im not. I did register to vote but I don't know where to go and I never got any confirmation that I registered. I'll have to ask my mom because she will know. They said they had to
use what was on your drivers license so that's her address.
Fall is here and the leaves are making my yard feel like thanksgiving. I'm not sure what we are doing as far as my mom. I feel like she should be able to go to dinner with me at my brothers house but she doesn't like being around my dad and his wife. Forgive and let go I say. I love thanksgiving
and cooking Dinner and hosting dinner. I love that my love doesn't just sleep on the couch all day only getting up to eat and then retreat for a nap before eating dessert and going back to sleep while I do I'll the cooking and the clean up. He helps clean the house sparkly and helps cook the turkey and all the other sides.
I must admit I unblocked my ex and got on his facebook the other day. I wanted to know if he was friends with J on hers. I don't want him seeing anything to do with me. I don't even like him being by my property when he picks her up and drops her off. I found it intriguing how he has been to slcc and how he posts things about how if someone is a cheater they are in a relationship when the one who isn't cheating is trying to pick up the pieces and heal. I wondered if he was hurt by someone and I hoped he was. Can't wait to block him again but I have to wait until tomorrow. I never realized how much damage he had done to me until L showed me. I'm glad I have finally gotten the help I needed and am feeling better and more courageous to defend myself when needed.
The holidays are upon us and it's making me feel really grateful for many things. I haven't been playing the game on facebook but may do so the last week or so before Thanksgiving. I can tell you I have been thankful for so many things lately and first and foremost that is my love. He is not only gorgeous and sexy, but he is funny, smart productive a most wonderful provider, takes really good care of me both when I am sick and when I am well. He doesn't judge me when I make mistakes and he is always ready to hold me in his arms. He comes home from a long day at work and doesn't just expect dinner and fall asleep on the couch. He helps make dinner. He asks how my day was. He asks J how her day was. He gives me a big hug and kiss and I welcome it. I am grateful for his constant help around the house and for his listening ear when I need it and his helping hand when I need that as well. I am grateful for his never ending love for me. I am grateful for my children and even when we don't see eye to eye I'm am proud of them all. T is doing good in Oregon. K still doesn't have full time but is working more hours and paying his phone bill steadily, as well as his rent. I need to break the news that if he's still living here in January the rent is going up. My love wants to raise it to 400 but I think 300 is fine. That gives me 50 dollars help with groceries and 50 dollars for his phone then 200 dollars to help with the mortgage. So far I am keeping 100 and he is only getting 100 to help with the rent. It's just not enough. (or so he says)
I'm hoping for Christmas to spend at least 50 on all the kids. I'm talking the big ones because J will probably have a little more spent on her since she still (at the age of 11) believes in Santa. There are some things she has asked for like a bed set and stuff to decorate and organize her room. She's getting so big she didn't ask for any toys at all. It's like she's a teenager already.
Last year I think we were able to get them all some money but I wanted to do more than just the stockings. Although I still want to have the stockings for them too. This year I want to be even more prepared for Christmas by having a brunch. J is with her Dad and won't be home until around 11. We get to sleep in. I'm psyched. I may go and get my mother though and have her come for a bit and eat with us. Then I would like to also have maybe (don't know if I'll be up to it emotionally or financially) but a Christmas party with my loves family would be fun. I want to get his mom something she will like. Something Elvis or Froggy. Her apartment complex is infested with bed bugs and they aren't doing anything about it. I feel like calling the board of health to go and check it out. I find it to be disgusting. Even if we pay to have her apartment treated it's all over so she'll just get them again. I don't want them again ever!!!
I am also grateful for my home. My love and I try to keep it clean as we can and since it's a mansion compared to what I am used to it is not cluttered like my other homes were. It is refreshing to come home each day and I am grateful every day that we were able to get it. I think the best thing about it though is that it is mine with my love. This is where he comes home each night. I love him.
I'm grateful for my job even though it frustrates me and the insurance and atmosphere is going down hill. They can't keep tenured employees and I think my team has the most tenured employees in the building beside custom and leadership. Sad I think. It used to be fun. I'm grateful for Jesus dying for my sins on the cross so that I too may be forgiven. I'm grateful for prayer and for him giving me my love when I asked for him to give me who he made for me. I'll never leave him ever. He'll have to leave me because as far as I'm concerned he's my better half and I can't live without him. I'll have more to tell you about my gratitude as the days go on. Right now Im grateful for the wine I've probably had too much of...
Tuesday, November 1, 2016
Tuesday
November 1, 2016.....
Can't believe it's only Tuesday because after the day I have had it feels like it should be a Thursday.
It was back to back calls all day long. Non stop. All day. I really think I am spoiled with the call type I'm on but I still held through I think. I think there was only a few that really got to me but the afternoon calls I turned it around. I need a new job.
November begins today and I'm really thinking it will be over if I blink to long. I cannot believe how quick the days fly by. Im so happy to have my house back. I miss my T and hope that he is doing good but I love having my craft/family room. I love the space and love being able to go and scrapbook again. I can't believe I've had my house back for 2 months now. Yay me!
Finances are yet again downhill this week and I need to go get stuff to take a salad to work tomorrow for a potluck. Hot dogs. oh boy. I don't know why we have to do these things each month. It gets really expensive. I also need to run to the dollar store to get two mugs for the united way auction basket for work. At least they aren't doing the angel tree again or that would be due this week as well. All proceeds go to United way and we donate tens of thousands every year. I believe last year company wide we donated hundreds of thousands because each center does its own thing and the plants do their own thing as well. It feels good and I never know when I'm gonna need help so Im happy to pitch in.
Other than money things here are good. K is still living in the basement though and I don't know what to tell him to do. He needs to get out making his life. I love him but I can't support them forever.
Can't believe it's only Tuesday because after the day I have had it feels like it should be a Thursday.
It was back to back calls all day long. Non stop. All day. I really think I am spoiled with the call type I'm on but I still held through I think. I think there was only a few that really got to me but the afternoon calls I turned it around. I need a new job.
November begins today and I'm really thinking it will be over if I blink to long. I cannot believe how quick the days fly by. Im so happy to have my house back. I miss my T and hope that he is doing good but I love having my craft/family room. I love the space and love being able to go and scrapbook again. I can't believe I've had my house back for 2 months now. Yay me!
Finances are yet again downhill this week and I need to go get stuff to take a salad to work tomorrow for a potluck. Hot dogs. oh boy. I don't know why we have to do these things each month. It gets really expensive. I also need to run to the dollar store to get two mugs for the united way auction basket for work. At least they aren't doing the angel tree again or that would be due this week as well. All proceeds go to United way and we donate tens of thousands every year. I believe last year company wide we donated hundreds of thousands because each center does its own thing and the plants do their own thing as well. It feels good and I never know when I'm gonna need help so Im happy to pitch in.
Other than money things here are good. K is still living in the basement though and I don't know what to tell him to do. He needs to get out making his life. I love him but I can't support them forever.
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