Friday January 31, 2014....
Smiling through the pain of having to work tomorrow. But happiness is all about your perception of it, and your attitude about it. I know that I break down and don't always have a good attitude, but that is what I am working on so as long as I continue the fight all should be well.
Today is a good day because you say so. Name it. Claim it. Keep moving forward!
Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts.....
Friday, January 31, 2014
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Wednesday January 29, 2014....
I have shed tears today. It's hard to be happy every minute of every day and when you are at your wits end it's the thing to do. I feel so much better since the tears were shed and now I am somewhat smiling at the nonsense on tv.
It is raining and snowing outside my house, which for a change I'm not too stressed about. I don't work tomorrow so I don't have to drive in it at the crack of dawn.
I have been trying to read quotes and thoughts on happiness to bring up my mood but I think maybe just going to bed will do the trick. I can pray that tomorrow I will wake up and be happier than today. I can hope that I don't spend my day sitting around being a boob.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Tuesday January 28, 2014...
Happiness is knowing that at least for the next couple days you can feed your kids. Today has not been the happiest of days for me because I have felt somewhat sick but after checking the bank account I am at least grateful
we have some food.
I will keep smiling at least for the next few days, until that food is gone and the kids are asking for something to eat. Then I'll have to worry again. I don't like to worry about things it hinders the happiness from hanging out.
Hope this year starts getting better than the last 3. I don't know how much more of this I can take and especially on my own. They say God doesn't give you more than you can handle. Between you and me I just really think God sees me handling far more than I am really capable of. I'm glad he thinks so much of me but I wish I felt the same for myself.
Happiness is knowing that at least for the next couple days you can feed your kids. Today has not been the happiest of days for me because I have felt somewhat sick but after checking the bank account I am at least grateful
we have some food.
I will keep smiling at least for the next few days, until that food is gone and the kids are asking for something to eat. Then I'll have to worry again. I don't like to worry about things it hinders the happiness from hanging out.
Hope this year starts getting better than the last 3. I don't know how much more of this I can take and especially on my own. They say God doesn't give you more than you can handle. Between you and me I just really think God sees me handling far more than I am really capable of. I'm glad he thinks so much of me but I wish I felt the same for myself.
Monday, January 27, 2014
Monday January 27, 2014...
I think my happiest moment today was getting off work. I'm sure it'll be the same tomorrow. I am never a happy camper when I have to work on the weekend and especially if I am not getting any days off during the week.
I'll live though I suppose. I was very much productive as a single person today, besides getting some bills paid, working 8 hours, and a load of dishes, I also fixed my toilet. The handle broke today and I just fixed it all by myself. I know. It wasn't hard at all. But I was still proud of myself for being able to take a handle on the situation and take care of it without asking for help from anyone.
I have been enjoying the weather the last couple of weeks but apparently we will be getting more storms this coming weekend. Yes that would be the weekend that I have to be at work at the crack of dawn.
I am grateful for so many things, but still trying to figure out what talents I have that I can utilize to make more money. I need to make atleast another 1000 a month to pay for rent.
Fresh out of ideas as I cannot think of anything to write in a book that people would really read. I'll keep thinking on it though...
I think my happiest moment today was getting off work. I'm sure it'll be the same tomorrow. I am never a happy camper when I have to work on the weekend and especially if I am not getting any days off during the week.
I'll live though I suppose. I was very much productive as a single person today, besides getting some bills paid, working 8 hours, and a load of dishes, I also fixed my toilet. The handle broke today and I just fixed it all by myself. I know. It wasn't hard at all. But I was still proud of myself for being able to take a handle on the situation and take care of it without asking for help from anyone.
I have been enjoying the weather the last couple of weeks but apparently we will be getting more storms this coming weekend. Yes that would be the weekend that I have to be at work at the crack of dawn.
I am grateful for so many things, but still trying to figure out what talents I have that I can utilize to make more money. I need to make atleast another 1000 a month to pay for rent.
Fresh out of ideas as I cannot think of anything to write in a book that people would really read. I'll keep thinking on it though...
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Sunday January 26, 2014....
Today was a pretty good day. I woke up fairly early and was able to have some quiet morning time with my coffee. I have just cleaned all day and it really wasn't very exciting except that it was relaxing.
The weekend has come and gone and I will be starting the beginning of a very long week tomorrow. I don't want to but I guess we can't be home everyday. Although I was having a relaxing weekend the only thing going through my head was what I can do to make more money.
I really have to start my own business or find something that I can do at home to work 2 jobs. There has to be something that is legit online. I want to write. I want to write books and I want people to love them but could that even happen?
Happiness is knowing you can feed your kids and that they are healthy and warm and safe. I am so grateful that in this awful life that has been given me, I was also given my kids to go through it with. They are my everything.
Today was a pretty good day. I woke up fairly early and was able to have some quiet morning time with my coffee. I have just cleaned all day and it really wasn't very exciting except that it was relaxing.
The weekend has come and gone and I will be starting the beginning of a very long week tomorrow. I don't want to but I guess we can't be home everyday. Although I was having a relaxing weekend the only thing going through my head was what I can do to make more money.
I really have to start my own business or find something that I can do at home to work 2 jobs. There has to be something that is legit online. I want to write. I want to write books and I want people to love them but could that even happen?
Happiness is knowing you can feed your kids and that they are healthy and warm and safe. I am so grateful that in this awful life that has been given me, I was also given my kids to go through it with. They are my everything.
Monday, January 20, 2014
Monday January 20, 2014...
Happiness is staying home and doing nothing and getting paid for it. I love getting paid to stay home. I don't know how long that will be nice, but as long as I have my own place I guess I shall enjoy it.
Happiness is also easier I find when you have had plenty of sleep and are not sleepy. Being sleepy makes it hard to concentrate, be nice, and be happy. I slept in today until late this morning and have been doing pretty much nothing all day. It's been great!!
Haven't had to practice being happy today because it was just a happy day in general. We'll see how tomorrow tests my patience.
Happiness is staying home and doing nothing and getting paid for it. I love getting paid to stay home. I don't know how long that will be nice, but as long as I have my own place I guess I shall enjoy it.
Happiness is also easier I find when you have had plenty of sleep and are not sleepy. Being sleepy makes it hard to concentrate, be nice, and be happy. I slept in today until late this morning and have been doing pretty much nothing all day. It's been great!!
Haven't had to practice being happy today because it was just a happy day in general. We'll see how tomorrow tests my patience.
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Saturday January 18, 2014.....
Happiness is seeing the sun for a little bit after work, hanging out at home doing nothing but nothing. Happiness is Having my son buy us dinner which is a double bonus for me because I didn't have to cook, or buy. That leaves me food to make for the next three days and then hopefully I'll be having enough to buy more groceries.
Happiness is not having to get up early in the morning, and not having to be up the next day either even though it's a Monday Happiness is knowing I'll still be getting paid for it.
I have not been the best at being happy today and did start getting angry later in the day when they still made us stay even though there was at least 6 minutes between the calls. If I could have had more to read I guess It wouldn't have been to bad.
All in all an ok day and hopefully tomorrow will be just as lovely.
Happiness is seeing the sun for a little bit after work, hanging out at home doing nothing but nothing. Happiness is Having my son buy us dinner which is a double bonus for me because I didn't have to cook, or buy. That leaves me food to make for the next three days and then hopefully I'll be having enough to buy more groceries.
Happiness is not having to get up early in the morning, and not having to be up the next day either even though it's a Monday Happiness is knowing I'll still be getting paid for it.
I have not been the best at being happy today and did start getting angry later in the day when they still made us stay even though there was at least 6 minutes between the calls. If I could have had more to read I guess It wouldn't have been to bad.
All in all an ok day and hopefully tomorrow will be just as lovely.
Friday, January 17, 2014
Friday January 17, 2014......
I am sitting home alone. It's Friday night, I have to work tomorrow so I can't really be going out and about anyway but I am home absolutely alone. I don't know if it weird that I have no idea what to do with my time. Do I want to spend this precious alone time cleaning, hanging out on the computer or watching tv.
Today, has been a wonderfully bright day. It did however go on and on and on. I can't believe how fast some days go and others go so very very slow. I tried to at least end the day with a smile on my face. Smiling makes it so much easier to be happy.
I will try and put on a smile, and make the most of the fact that I have to be there. The bank reps are just stuck there too. I understand. I personally believe that if we just shut everything down and people hung out with family and friends all weekend and didn't make others work, we would all be so much happier. We all work to hard and spend all our time doing business and not doing any else. If only we could all take 2 vacations a year. If only we could all take a nap mid day. If only little fairies cleaned my house and I didn't have to spend the rest of my time doing that ha ha.
Happiness is I guess, what we make it. Hopefully I can figure out how to make my future awesome.
I am sitting home alone. It's Friday night, I have to work tomorrow so I can't really be going out and about anyway but I am home absolutely alone. I don't know if it weird that I have no idea what to do with my time. Do I want to spend this precious alone time cleaning, hanging out on the computer or watching tv.
Today, has been a wonderfully bright day. It did however go on and on and on. I can't believe how fast some days go and others go so very very slow. I tried to at least end the day with a smile on my face. Smiling makes it so much easier to be happy.
I will try and put on a smile, and make the most of the fact that I have to be there. The bank reps are just stuck there too. I understand. I personally believe that if we just shut everything down and people hung out with family and friends all weekend and didn't make others work, we would all be so much happier. We all work to hard and spend all our time doing business and not doing any else. If only we could all take 2 vacations a year. If only we could all take a nap mid day. If only little fairies cleaned my house and I didn't have to spend the rest of my time doing that ha ha.
Happiness is I guess, what we make it. Hopefully I can figure out how to make my future awesome.
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Wednesday January 15, 2014...
Good morning. My how time flies when you are doing nothing. I am home, happily hanging out with my coffee, in my jammies, doing nothing.
It's my day off. I may do some cleaning. I should
Cleaning makes me happy sometimes. I really should do something productive since I'm off and all. As you can see I am trying to convince myself I should clean. I'm not convinced I should, as it's my day off and I would rather sleep.
I wish some miracle would happen today and I would somehow, someway get some money to get my utilities paid. hmmmm don't know how to make a miracle like that happen but wouldn't it be nice if we all had a money tree. It would just grow the money and you would pluck off what you needed... just sayin
The sun is shining bright outside my window and it is making me very happy even during the current stress with the finances. I love the sunshine and I love that it is melting the snow away. I don't love the snow, as you know.
I cannot believe that it is already the middle of January! Where does the time fly off to. I'm going to blink and it will be February already. I hope it isn't still snowing in February. I vote we have an early Spring and moderate temps throughout the spring and summer. (well if we are dreaming we may as well go big right?)
Loving the sun so I think I shall go drink my coffee outside on the porch and bask in it's warm glow. The more sun I absorb the Happier I will be..
Good morning. My how time flies when you are doing nothing. I am home, happily hanging out with my coffee, in my jammies, doing nothing.
It's my day off. I may do some cleaning. I should
Cleaning makes me happy sometimes. I really should do something productive since I'm off and all. As you can see I am trying to convince myself I should clean. I'm not convinced I should, as it's my day off and I would rather sleep.
I wish some miracle would happen today and I would somehow, someway get some money to get my utilities paid. hmmmm don't know how to make a miracle like that happen but wouldn't it be nice if we all had a money tree. It would just grow the money and you would pluck off what you needed... just sayin
The sun is shining bright outside my window and it is making me very happy even during the current stress with the finances. I love the sunshine and I love that it is melting the snow away. I don't love the snow, as you know.
I cannot believe that it is already the middle of January! Where does the time fly off to. I'm going to blink and it will be February already. I hope it isn't still snowing in February. I vote we have an early Spring and moderate temps throughout the spring and summer. (well if we are dreaming we may as well go big right?)
Loving the sun so I think I shall go drink my coffee outside on the porch and bask in it's warm glow. The more sun I absorb the Happier I will be..
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Tuesday January 14, 2014....
You wouldn't believe it but I am off work, home early on a Tuesday and it is a beautiful day. The sky is blue (as blue as it can be with the inversion coming back) and the sun is shining. You almost don't need a coat, but you do need sunglasses. The snow is melting pretty fast. It's like a teaser for spring. It's a warm 39 degrees on this beautiful winter day, and it seems it will be about the same all week.
I went and got food, because well, it's a necessity right? I don't know how other things will get paid but we can eat for about 5 more days. Gas in the car as well because well we have to get to work as well.
I am off work tomorrow and early on Thursday as well. It is really nice to be off but I have to work on Saturday and will be stuck there all day long. not quite as grateful for the Saturday work time but very very grateful I have tomorrow off and I'll still be getting paid for it.
My morning coffee made me happy this morning and as the day went on I got happier and happier because I knew I'd be getting off soon. It was a good day at work. I am especially grateful to have a job and a paycheck to pay the bills. I wish it covered more but I am glad it covers what it does or I'd be in a whole world of hurt.
So I was reading some a list of things that you have to give up to be happy, here are a few that make sense to me
*Give up your need to always be right.
Would you rather be right, or happy?
*Give up your need for control
By letting it go it all gets done.
*Give up on blaming others
A man can fail many times, but he isn't a failure
until he begins to blame someone else.
*Give up on complaining
You can complain because the rose has thorns
or rejoice because thorns have roses.
*Give up your excuses
99% of failures come from people who make excuses
*Give up your past
Forget the failures of the past and press on to the greater
achievements of the future.
*Give up attachment
It's not good for you
* Give up living your life to other peoples expectations.
You wouldn't believe it but I am off work, home early on a Tuesday and it is a beautiful day. The sky is blue (as blue as it can be with the inversion coming back) and the sun is shining. You almost don't need a coat, but you do need sunglasses. The snow is melting pretty fast. It's like a teaser for spring. It's a warm 39 degrees on this beautiful winter day, and it seems it will be about the same all week.
I went and got food, because well, it's a necessity right? I don't know how other things will get paid but we can eat for about 5 more days. Gas in the car as well because well we have to get to work as well.
I am off work tomorrow and early on Thursday as well. It is really nice to be off but I have to work on Saturday and will be stuck there all day long. not quite as grateful for the Saturday work time but very very grateful I have tomorrow off and I'll still be getting paid for it.
My morning coffee made me happy this morning and as the day went on I got happier and happier because I knew I'd be getting off soon. It was a good day at work. I am especially grateful to have a job and a paycheck to pay the bills. I wish it covered more but I am glad it covers what it does or I'd be in a whole world of hurt.
So I was reading some a list of things that you have to give up to be happy, here are a few that make sense to me
*Give up your need to always be right.
Would you rather be right, or happy?
*Give up your need for control
By letting it go it all gets done.
*Give up on blaming others
A man can fail many times, but he isn't a failure
until he begins to blame someone else.
*Give up on complaining
You can complain because the rose has thorns
or rejoice because thorns have roses.
*Give up your excuses
99% of failures come from people who make excuses
*Give up your past
Forget the failures of the past and press on to the greater
achievements of the future.
*Give up attachment
It's not good for you
* Give up living your life to other peoples expectations.
Monday, January 13, 2014
Monday January 13, 2014...
Happiness is blue skies and sunshine bright in my face as I walk to my car from work. I hear that if you let the past go and look to the future it will help you be happy.
I get happy when I get to punch out for the day. I have smiled a lot today and have laughed several times right out loud. A couple of times I laughed so hard it hurt my stomach. It felt good.
Today I am grateful for so many things and hopeful that things will all work out in the end. Putting the stress aside helps keep me happy and happy is what I want to be.
Happiness is blue skies and sunshine bright in my face as I walk to my car from work. I hear that if you let the past go and look to the future it will help you be happy.
I get happy when I get to punch out for the day. I have smiled a lot today and have laughed several times right out loud. A couple of times I laughed so hard it hurt my stomach. It felt good.
Today I am grateful for so many things and hopeful that things will all work out in the end. Putting the stress aside helps keep me happy and happy is what I want to be.
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Sunday January 12, 2014....
already midway through January. I don't know why but I really think time is on double speed. It was just the 1st. Well anyway there are so many things I should be doing today but instead I am moping around wondering how I'm going to come up about 300 dollars extra in the next couple of weeks.
Times are tough right now and I'm having a tough time looking forward and seeing light. Seems really foggy to me and I don't want to say the word hopeless but if any of you had seen the place I'll be living soon you would feel the same. I keep being told that things will start getting better and that God has big plans for me and that he has better things for me. I don't know if I believe it. I have no choice but to leave it in Gods hands and hope he helps me find a way to get the money to get my bills paid. I am willing to do most things to get the money. I just don't know what talents I can utilize that would make me money.
I guess I can make a face book page for my cards and paper crafts. I don't know if that would make much but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try. I really need to get my life going even though this stupid divorce is not final and I am still living in limbo. My children shouldn't have to live in limbo too always worried if we are gonna have a place to live. It's crazy. I have strong feeling that writing has something to do with what I should be doing but I'm still not sure if I should be writing books, or articles or what.
I can't wait until I can have everything straightened out and be living on my own. It'll be great!! I think that will make a huge difference in the quest for happiness.
I am trying not to think about the time ticking away, so that I can enjoy not being at work today. I have to work next Saturday and it is not going to be fun. I am taking Wednesday off paid, but still. I also get off early on Tues. and Thursday. Hopefully it will all go as fast as the time away from work.
I am so happy here in my jammies. I have hot coffee and I don't have to go out into the cold at all if I don't want. I could even go up and take a nap if I wanted. Ahhh weekends, how I do love thee.
already midway through January. I don't know why but I really think time is on double speed. It was just the 1st. Well anyway there are so many things I should be doing today but instead I am moping around wondering how I'm going to come up about 300 dollars extra in the next couple of weeks.
Times are tough right now and I'm having a tough time looking forward and seeing light. Seems really foggy to me and I don't want to say the word hopeless but if any of you had seen the place I'll be living soon you would feel the same. I keep being told that things will start getting better and that God has big plans for me and that he has better things for me. I don't know if I believe it. I have no choice but to leave it in Gods hands and hope he helps me find a way to get the money to get my bills paid. I am willing to do most things to get the money. I just don't know what talents I can utilize that would make me money.
I guess I can make a face book page for my cards and paper crafts. I don't know if that would make much but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try. I really need to get my life going even though this stupid divorce is not final and I am still living in limbo. My children shouldn't have to live in limbo too always worried if we are gonna have a place to live. It's crazy. I have strong feeling that writing has something to do with what I should be doing but I'm still not sure if I should be writing books, or articles or what.
I can't wait until I can have everything straightened out and be living on my own. It'll be great!! I think that will make a huge difference in the quest for happiness.
I am trying not to think about the time ticking away, so that I can enjoy not being at work today. I have to work next Saturday and it is not going to be fun. I am taking Wednesday off paid, but still. I also get off early on Tues. and Thursday. Hopefully it will all go as fast as the time away from work.
I am so happy here in my jammies. I have hot coffee and I don't have to go out into the cold at all if I don't want. I could even go up and take a nap if I wanted. Ahhh weekends, how I do love thee.
Saturday, January 11, 2014
Saturday January 11, 2014....
Today has been a dismal day full of laundry and washing dishes and paying bills with money I don't even have. I have laughed several times and smiled most of the day because guess what? Somehow it will all work out. I don't know how. I don't know what I'm gonna do, but somehow everything will all work out and if it doesn't I'll deal with it as it happens.
We don't have any money to go anywhere but we had a game off and played Life, Yahtzee, Hold on Eric, and Uno. My daughter won me on most of them.
Again, we had a really good day I just wish it could have been a little longer. I am not ready for it to almost be Sunday. I don't like Sunday because Monday follows it and I really just don't want to be trapped there. I need to find a relaxing second job so that it's not so bad to be working my entire life away.
Happiness, I am finding, while impossible to have every minute of every day, is certainly easier than being miserable. Frowning and stressing gives me such a headache, and I swear has something to do with my neck hurting so bad all the time too.
Today has been a dismal day full of laundry and washing dishes and paying bills with money I don't even have. I have laughed several times and smiled most of the day because guess what? Somehow it will all work out. I don't know how. I don't know what I'm gonna do, but somehow everything will all work out and if it doesn't I'll deal with it as it happens.
We don't have any money to go anywhere but we had a game off and played Life, Yahtzee, Hold on Eric, and Uno. My daughter won me on most of them.
Again, we had a really good day I just wish it could have been a little longer. I am not ready for it to almost be Sunday. I don't like Sunday because Monday follows it and I really just don't want to be trapped there. I need to find a relaxing second job so that it's not so bad to be working my entire life away.
Happiness, I am finding, while impossible to have every minute of every day, is certainly easier than being miserable. Frowning and stressing gives me such a headache, and I swear has something to do with my neck hurting so bad all the time too.
Thursday, January 9, 2014
Thursday January 9, 2014....
Being sick today. I jinxed myself laying in bed last night I thought , I could call in sick tomorrow.... so here we are. I know it's my medication needing adjustments but I don't know if it's going to be covered since IHC stopped accepting my insurance. Either way my stomach is all queasy and feels like someone is in there digging around with a serrated spoon.
I'll have to probably find a new regular doctor so that my blood tests are covered and I don't have to pay $50.00 every time I go get my blood drawn. It's bad enough how much the medicine keeps changing. It's usually cheap but it doesn't make it any better when you get one refill and they change it a week later and then two weeks after that and so on and so on.... aahhhhh. Living the life.
Deep breath. Smile. Watching the snow fall. I hate winter, as much as I do appreciate the beauty of it all, I think we should either hibernate or work from home or something. It's too cold. It's too dangerous. I used to think it was just me that hated to drive in it but I have since learned that most of my co-workers also drive white knuckled 20 mph to work.
I guess I wouldn't mind winter so much if the snow only fell on the grass and trees, if only the roads were immune to the freezing cold ice and slippery slush that accumulates. I wouldn't be upset if I only had to shovel once a day as well. you know, shovel in the morning and it'll last all day.
Maybe there's something else we could use on the roads to make them immune to the cold. I do appreciate a hot cup of coffee and my heater blasting warm air in my face. I'm grateful I have a roof over head.
I have been feeling this feeling that I need to find something to make money. I need a second job that I can do at home. I don't want to sell Avon or Mary Kay or anything it never works out. Nobody ever wants to have a party and besides it costs for all the products. I must have a talent some where that I can utilize for my own business. I'm sure it would be nothing that would make me rich or anything but I really would like to be successful for my children. The little lights of my life.
Although never diagnosed I am pretty sure I have SAD. I think I need one of those lights they have you sit in front of so you get the rays you need.
even better though would be if God decided it has been cold long enough and brought an early Spring. We haven't had an early Spring for awhile.
Deep breath. Smile. It'll all be over soon and flowers will be poking through the melting ice. I don't know if I'll be here or what. Haven't heard from lawyers yet. Nothing from the court either. Deep breath. Smile.
Being sick today. I jinxed myself laying in bed last night I thought , I could call in sick tomorrow.... so here we are. I know it's my medication needing adjustments but I don't know if it's going to be covered since IHC stopped accepting my insurance. Either way my stomach is all queasy and feels like someone is in there digging around with a serrated spoon.
I'll have to probably find a new regular doctor so that my blood tests are covered and I don't have to pay $50.00 every time I go get my blood drawn. It's bad enough how much the medicine keeps changing. It's usually cheap but it doesn't make it any better when you get one refill and they change it a week later and then two weeks after that and so on and so on.... aahhhhh. Living the life.
Deep breath. Smile. Watching the snow fall. I hate winter, as much as I do appreciate the beauty of it all, I think we should either hibernate or work from home or something. It's too cold. It's too dangerous. I used to think it was just me that hated to drive in it but I have since learned that most of my co-workers also drive white knuckled 20 mph to work.
I guess I wouldn't mind winter so much if the snow only fell on the grass and trees, if only the roads were immune to the freezing cold ice and slippery slush that accumulates. I wouldn't be upset if I only had to shovel once a day as well. you know, shovel in the morning and it'll last all day.
Maybe there's something else we could use on the roads to make them immune to the cold. I do appreciate a hot cup of coffee and my heater blasting warm air in my face. I'm grateful I have a roof over head.
I have been feeling this feeling that I need to find something to make money. I need a second job that I can do at home. I don't want to sell Avon or Mary Kay or anything it never works out. Nobody ever wants to have a party and besides it costs for all the products. I must have a talent some where that I can utilize for my own business. I'm sure it would be nothing that would make me rich or anything but I really would like to be successful for my children. The little lights of my life.
Although never diagnosed I am pretty sure I have SAD. I think I need one of those lights they have you sit in front of so you get the rays you need.
even better though would be if God decided it has been cold long enough and brought an early Spring. We haven't had an early Spring for awhile.
Deep breath. Smile. It'll all be over soon and flowers will be poking through the melting ice. I don't know if I'll be here or what. Haven't heard from lawyers yet. Nothing from the court either. Deep breath. Smile.
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Wednesday January 8, 2014....
Took a snow day today, because I love to stay home and be warm while the storms rage on around me. I shouldn't call in for this I know but I can't help it. It was pretty bad because of the rain freezing under the snow.
I am hopeful that tomorrow goes by fast and brings us to Friday quickly. I am grateful that I get sick pay and can call in when the need arises. It makes me happy to be with my kids. I even enjoyed shoveling the cold snow today. It wasn't too deep just really slushy.
I have tried to smile and laugh today and not let the stresses of life get to me. I think that laughter also makes your day just go so much smoother. I know it makes mine smoother. It also makes me feel good and I can't say for sure but I think it must release some sort of endorphins or something when you laugh. I tell you it's impossible to be sad when you are laughing, and my kids keep me laughing all the time.
When I stop and think about just how much they mean to me, how much I love them I just can't even put words to it. They are my everything. My heart, my soul. I don't know what I would do without the little buggers...
Took a snow day today, because I love to stay home and be warm while the storms rage on around me. I shouldn't call in for this I know but I can't help it. It was pretty bad because of the rain freezing under the snow.
I am hopeful that tomorrow goes by fast and brings us to Friday quickly. I am grateful that I get sick pay and can call in when the need arises. It makes me happy to be with my kids. I even enjoyed shoveling the cold snow today. It wasn't too deep just really slushy.
I have tried to smile and laugh today and not let the stresses of life get to me. I think that laughter also makes your day just go so much smoother. I know it makes mine smoother. It also makes me feel good and I can't say for sure but I think it must release some sort of endorphins or something when you laugh. I tell you it's impossible to be sad when you are laughing, and my kids keep me laughing all the time.
When I stop and think about just how much they mean to me, how much I love them I just can't even put words to it. They are my everything. My heart, my soul. I don't know what I would do without the little buggers...
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
Tuesday January 7, 2014....
Happiness is being able to finally get the heat bill paid. Especially since the temps are being so ignorant of our comfort. We also had food to eat today and that is also a good thing.
Tomorrow is Wednesday, I wish it were Friday but I will hope for the best that it will be an ok day. I swear once you punch in for the day you are trapped there in hell for so long it hurts.
I love the company so I really wish I could find something else I liked there, that kept my schedule but didn't require being on that phone at the desk for 8 hours straight.
My back is always hurting and my neck is a nightmare. I have felt pain in my arms for 3 solid days and I don't see it easing any time soon. But I am grateful to have the job and hopeful that things will start going better there.
I have tried to smile a lot today and it did help the day go a little smoother. Not much better exactly but smoother. I think people are a little less bitchy when you are smiling.
I can't believe we are already a week into January. I can't believe that we are in 2014. What am I gonna do with my life? What path shall I choose to support my kids? This is my year and it's time to get it started .....
Happiness is being able to finally get the heat bill paid. Especially since the temps are being so ignorant of our comfort. We also had food to eat today and that is also a good thing.
Tomorrow is Wednesday, I wish it were Friday but I will hope for the best that it will be an ok day. I swear once you punch in for the day you are trapped there in hell for so long it hurts.
I love the company so I really wish I could find something else I liked there, that kept my schedule but didn't require being on that phone at the desk for 8 hours straight.
My back is always hurting and my neck is a nightmare. I have felt pain in my arms for 3 solid days and I don't see it easing any time soon. But I am grateful to have the job and hopeful that things will start going better there.
I have tried to smile a lot today and it did help the day go a little smoother. Not much better exactly but smoother. I think people are a little less bitchy when you are smiling.
I can't believe we are already a week into January. I can't believe that we are in 2014. What am I gonna do with my life? What path shall I choose to support my kids? This is my year and it's time to get it started .....
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Sunday January 5, 2014.....
Blue skies, and the warm sun upon my face. Not having to wake up early and drinking coffee leisurely throughout the morning. Chocolate and Root beer floats.
My daughters laughter, and clean sheets. Hot showers and long naps. Happiness is more than having things, and its more than what we want. It's about the little things we have that we take for granted. The things like a kittens kiss, and the loyalty of the family dog.
Happiness comes from inside when you choose to push away the anger and the hurt. Happiness is what happens when you finally decide that the pain isn't worth it anymore and you forgive and move on.
Happiness is the thoughts of Spring in just a few more months. Happiness is having the day off with pay. Happiness is having enough to pay the bills and buys groceries. Happiness is laughing just because life is so perfect. It isn't about where you live, or how much room you have. It's about opening your eyes in the morning and smiling at the light through the window and chance to have a great day.
Everyday I try and think of at least one thing that makes me happy. One thing that happened to make me happy, or one thing that I or someone else did to make the day great.
I am hoping that as the year goes on I can not only preach this to myself but live it as well. I already know I'd rather smile than frown.
Blue skies, and the warm sun upon my face. Not having to wake up early and drinking coffee leisurely throughout the morning. Chocolate and Root beer floats.
My daughters laughter, and clean sheets. Hot showers and long naps. Happiness is more than having things, and its more than what we want. It's about the little things we have that we take for granted. The things like a kittens kiss, and the loyalty of the family dog.
Happiness comes from inside when you choose to push away the anger and the hurt. Happiness is what happens when you finally decide that the pain isn't worth it anymore and you forgive and move on.
Happiness is the thoughts of Spring in just a few more months. Happiness is having the day off with pay. Happiness is having enough to pay the bills and buys groceries. Happiness is laughing just because life is so perfect. It isn't about where you live, or how much room you have. It's about opening your eyes in the morning and smiling at the light through the window and chance to have a great day.
Everyday I try and think of at least one thing that makes me happy. One thing that happened to make me happy, or one thing that I or someone else did to make the day great.
I am hoping that as the year goes on I can not only preach this to myself but live it as well. I already know I'd rather smile than frown.
Saturday, January 4, 2014
Saturday January 4, 2014....
The days just go by don't they? It was just barely New Years and now here it is the 4th. I say that because it may as well be the 14th how fast the days go by. I don't know what this new year is going to bring but I think that I need to make it great.
I need to do things and make memories. I need to take steps to make a new beginning and make it full of love and happiness. No matter what I get, no matter what happens or where we end up I will move on with my head held high and a smile on my face.
Today has been full of puttering around the house and doing laundry and dishes. I made super nachos for dinner tonight and stopped by Big Lots where I found a Birthday present for my daughter. Her Birthday is in February. It's nice to get stuff that is on the clearance sales from Christmas.
I'm glad to see that year end and I hope that this year will be a lot better. I have been so relaxed and happy today. I like when I am able to just do nothing all day. I think I shall do the same tomorrow. It makes me happy to hang out at home while I still have one.
The days just go by don't they? It was just barely New Years and now here it is the 4th. I say that because it may as well be the 14th how fast the days go by. I don't know what this new year is going to bring but I think that I need to make it great.
I need to do things and make memories. I need to take steps to make a new beginning and make it full of love and happiness. No matter what I get, no matter what happens or where we end up I will move on with my head held high and a smile on my face.
Today has been full of puttering around the house and doing laundry and dishes. I made super nachos for dinner tonight and stopped by Big Lots where I found a Birthday present for my daughter. Her Birthday is in February. It's nice to get stuff that is on the clearance sales from Christmas.
I'm glad to see that year end and I hope that this year will be a lot better. I have been so relaxed and happy today. I like when I am able to just do nothing all day. I think I shall do the same tomorrow. It makes me happy to hang out at home while I still have one.
Thursday, January 2, 2014
Thursday January 2, 2014....
I don't know what makes the time at work and the time at home different but I tell you the time at work goes so slow you get a ton done. When I'm home I get nothing done except cooking a cleaning. One day I want to have time for fun stuff too. I'm really not sure what kind of fun stuff but I always hear people talking about how you have to get out and do things. I want to do those things.
One day I want to be watching my daughter in dance class and ice skating lessons and not worry about the cost. One day I am gonna figure out what to do when I grow up.
Another day ending with a smile on my face. My son not only bought the ingredients but also made dinner. How relaxing for me. What is not going to make me happy about that.
Tomorrow is Friday which Is one of my favorite days considering that it means I can sleep in the next day. If I can just get through til 3:30 tomorrow, as speedily as possible and I will be a very, very happy person. Other things that make me happy are pajamas, and anything soft and fluffy i.e. pillows and blankets.
I am pretty sure that Happiness lays within the wonderfully relaxing cradle of my bed, snuggled softly among by fluffy blankets.
I don't know what makes the time at work and the time at home different but I tell you the time at work goes so slow you get a ton done. When I'm home I get nothing done except cooking a cleaning. One day I want to have time for fun stuff too. I'm really not sure what kind of fun stuff but I always hear people talking about how you have to get out and do things. I want to do those things.
One day I want to be watching my daughter in dance class and ice skating lessons and not worry about the cost. One day I am gonna figure out what to do when I grow up.
Another day ending with a smile on my face. My son not only bought the ingredients but also made dinner. How relaxing for me. What is not going to make me happy about that.
Tomorrow is Friday which Is one of my favorite days considering that it means I can sleep in the next day. If I can just get through til 3:30 tomorrow, as speedily as possible and I will be a very, very happy person. Other things that make me happy are pajamas, and anything soft and fluffy i.e. pillows and blankets.
I am pretty sure that Happiness lays within the wonderfully relaxing cradle of my bed, snuggled softly among by fluffy blankets.
Wednesday January 1, 2014....
A New Year, A new day... We made a big Turkey dinner and spent the day as though it was Thanksgiving all over again. It was a nice dinner. I brought my mom over to eat with us so it was nice. I believe she should keep busy and feel needed and wanted.
My day was full of happiness and laughter. I felt the love from my kids as they ate the wonderful food and in the way the treated my mom. I played with my daughter and she helped me with the Turkey and the other cooking.
The new year has been brought in full of happiness even if we didn't make too big a deal out of the actual celebration. The kids are still out of school for a couple more days but I am back to work in just a few hours it seems. Our busy time has come and although last year wasn't so bad, I shutter to think if we will make it through this year.
I want to find work I can do from home... I need to earn extra money. Don't know what I can do but I'm thinking of selling my crafts, atleast see if they are worth something to anyone out there.
Hope that everyone has a wonderful New Year and that you can all join me in the search for daily happiness. I am also going to do this thing I saw on Facebook, You take a jar, and every time something wonderful happens to you, you write it down on a piece of paper and put it in the jar. On the next New Years Eve you open it up and read all the great things that happened to you throughout the year.
I think that it would also enlighten you on all the small things that have happened that you don't even remember because we tend to only remember the ruff times when everything goes wrong.
May we all have a Happy & Prosperous New Year...
A New Year, A new day... We made a big Turkey dinner and spent the day as though it was Thanksgiving all over again. It was a nice dinner. I brought my mom over to eat with us so it was nice. I believe she should keep busy and feel needed and wanted.
My day was full of happiness and laughter. I felt the love from my kids as they ate the wonderful food and in the way the treated my mom. I played with my daughter and she helped me with the Turkey and the other cooking.
The new year has been brought in full of happiness even if we didn't make too big a deal out of the actual celebration. The kids are still out of school for a couple more days but I am back to work in just a few hours it seems. Our busy time has come and although last year wasn't so bad, I shutter to think if we will make it through this year.
I want to find work I can do from home... I need to earn extra money. Don't know what I can do but I'm thinking of selling my crafts, atleast see if they are worth something to anyone out there.
Hope that everyone has a wonderful New Year and that you can all join me in the search for daily happiness. I am also going to do this thing I saw on Facebook, You take a jar, and every time something wonderful happens to you, you write it down on a piece of paper and put it in the jar. On the next New Years Eve you open it up and read all the great things that happened to you throughout the year.
I think that it would also enlighten you on all the small things that have happened that you don't even remember because we tend to only remember the ruff times when everything goes wrong.
May we all have a Happy & Prosperous New Year...
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