Thursday January 9, 2014....


     Being sick today.  I jinxed myself laying in bed last night I thought , I could call in sick tomorrow.... so here we are.  I know it's my medication needing adjustments but I don't know if it's going to be covered since IHC stopped accepting my insurance. Either way my stomach is all queasy and feels like someone is in there digging around with a serrated spoon.
     I'll have to probably find a new regular doctor so that my blood tests are covered and I don't have to pay $50.00 every time I go get my blood drawn.  It's bad enough how much the medicine keeps changing.  It's usually cheap but it doesn't make it any better when you get one refill and they change it a week later and then two weeks after that and so on and so on.... aahhhhh.  Living the life.
      Deep breath.  Smile.  Watching the snow fall.  I hate winter, as much as I do appreciate the beauty of it all, I think we should either hibernate or work from home or something.   It's too cold.  It's too dangerous.  I used to think it was just me that hated to drive in it but I have since learned that most of my co-workers also drive white knuckled 20 mph to work.
       I guess I wouldn't mind winter so much if the snow only fell on the grass and trees, if only the roads were immune to the freezing cold ice and slippery slush that accumulates.  I wouldn't be upset if I only had to shovel once a day as well.  you know, shovel in the morning and it'll last all day.
       Maybe there's something else we could use on the roads to make them immune to the cold. I do appreciate a hot cup of coffee and my heater blasting warm air in my face.  I'm grateful I have a roof over head.
       I have been feeling this feeling that I need to find something to make money.  I need a second job that I can do at home. I don't want to sell Avon or Mary Kay or anything it never works out.  Nobody ever wants to have a party and besides it costs for all the products.   I must have a talent some where that I can utilize for my own business.  I'm sure it would be nothing that would make me rich or anything but I really would like to be successful for my children.  The little lights of my life.
         Although never diagnosed I am pretty sure I have SAD. I think I need one of those lights they have you sit in front of so you get the rays you need.
even better though would be if God decided it has been cold long enough and brought an early Spring.  We haven't had an early Spring for awhile.
      Deep breath.  Smile.  It'll all be over soon and flowers will be poking through  the melting ice.   I don't know if I'll be here or what.  Haven't heard from lawyers yet.  Nothing from the court either.   Deep breath.  Smile.