Sunday January 12, 2014....


    already midway through January. I don't know why but I really think time is on double speed.  It was just the 1st.  Well anyway there are so many things I should be doing today but instead I am moping around wondering how I'm going to come up about 300 dollars extra in the next couple of weeks.
     Times are tough right now and I'm having a tough time looking forward and seeing light.  Seems really foggy to me and I don't want to say the word hopeless but if any of you had seen the place I'll be living soon you would feel the same. I keep being told that things will start getting better and that God has big plans for me and that he has better things for me.  I don't know if I believe it.  I have no choice but to leave it in Gods hands and hope he helps me find a way to get the money to get my bills paid.  I am willing to do most things to get the money.  I just don't know what talents I can utilize that would make me money.
      I guess I can make a face book page for my cards and paper crafts.   I don't know if that would make much but I guess it wouldn't hurt to try.  I really need to get my life going even though this stupid divorce is not final and I am still living in limbo.  My children shouldn't have to live in limbo too always worried if we are gonna have a place to live.  It's crazy.   I have strong feeling that writing has something to do with what I should be doing but I'm still not sure if I should be writing books, or articles or what.
      I can't wait until I can have everything straightened out and be living on my own.  It'll be great!!  I think that will make a huge difference in the quest for happiness.
      I am trying not to think about the time ticking away, so that I can enjoy not being at work today.  I have to work next Saturday and it is not going to be fun.   I am taking Wednesday off paid, but still.  I also get off early on Tues. and Thursday.   Hopefully it will all go as fast as the time away from work. 
      I am so happy here in my jammies.  I have hot coffee and I don't have to go out into the cold at all if I don't want.  I could even go up and take a nap if I wanted.   Ahhh weekends, how I do love thee.