August 31, 2016...
So tired. I am getting used to get up so early though. The new shift is still going by fast and I'm glad I took it. Now if I can figure out how to get to sleep earlier so I can be more alert during the day. Today was bad though, I thought I was going to be falling asleep at my desk.
Now I am home though. Doing a couple loads of laundry. I love that I can use my washer whenever I want again. I really love that we are down so many kids. L is the big one though. Glad he is finally out and I don't have to deal with his friends galore and noise and disrespect. Now if he would just come and take the rest of his stuff that would be great.
We have to go up to USU on Friday so we can get the car. I wish he had of just told her that she couldn't take it last week when she was here. We could have already had it done and over with. Oh well guess that is Friday nights activity. I think we are busy on Saturday too although it is Labor day weekend so I'm happy to have Monday off too.
Wednesday, August 31, 2016
Monday, August 29, 2016
Monday..
August 29, 2016...
Came home a couple hours early due to not being able to keep my eyes open. Dropped T off at the airport this morning. He's moving to Oregon to be with his Dad for awhile. I already miss him, my kitchen is a mess. Took me awhile to wash some dishes and I have a load waiting to wash when the dishwasher finishes the one going now. I also threw in some laundry because L moved out yesterday, and B moved out last weekend. I have my washer and dryer back!!!
I will probably not know what to do with myself when they are all gone living their own lives, but for now I really am enjoying that we are going to have our space back and hopefully some of our peace, and sanity.
Here's to cheaper utilities and groceries and let's hope a faster internet since there isn't so many people gaming on it. Wow hopefully T does great in Oregon and finds a job he loves. I'm proud of him for trying at least.
Came home a couple hours early due to not being able to keep my eyes open. Dropped T off at the airport this morning. He's moving to Oregon to be with his Dad for awhile. I already miss him, my kitchen is a mess. Took me awhile to wash some dishes and I have a load waiting to wash when the dishwasher finishes the one going now. I also threw in some laundry because L moved out yesterday, and B moved out last weekend. I have my washer and dryer back!!!
I will probably not know what to do with myself when they are all gone living their own lives, but for now I really am enjoying that we are going to have our space back and hopefully some of our peace, and sanity.
Here's to cheaper utilities and groceries and let's hope a faster internet since there isn't so many people gaming on it. Wow hopefully T does great in Oregon and finds a job he loves. I'm proud of him for trying at least.
Saturday..
August 27, 2016...
It's a beautiful day again today. A little cooler than it has been so that's nice. The month is almost over. So strange how fast time flies. I slept most of the day away. Didn't get up til after 12. I had been awake and just laying there but still it was most relaxing.
Had a lovely evening last night and today we are just cleaning the house and listening to tunes. I was jamming out to Def Leppard earlier. Love them. I've only been to one of their concerts but it was awesome.
It's a beautiful day again today. A little cooler than it has been so that's nice. The month is almost over. So strange how fast time flies. I slept most of the day away. Didn't get up til after 12. I had been awake and just laying there but still it was most relaxing.
Had a lovely evening last night and today we are just cleaning the house and listening to tunes. I was jamming out to Def Leppard earlier. Love them. I've only been to one of their concerts but it was awesome.
Monday, August 22, 2016
Monday..
August 22, 2016....
So not good at keeping up in here. K had his 23rd birthday. B went off to college and in a week T is moving to Oregon to be with his Dad. Then I will be 2 down and 2 to go. L is supposed to be moving out at the end of the month. I'm not holding my breath that it will actually happen but that is the news I hear.
Still needing to get a second job so that I can get my bills paid. I'm so tired of being broke. Nobody will help me with the phones or groceries. K just pays his rent and that is all. I really need to be having them put their phones in their own names.
The first day of 6th grade was today for J. She had a good time and got off half a day for the first day. They go to regular hours starting tomorrow. I'm glad she's back in school and not sleeping all day but I also wish I didn't have to drive her up to my moms. Oh well only one more year and then she's going to school out here. It should fly right by like everything else does....
So not good at keeping up in here. K had his 23rd birthday. B went off to college and in a week T is moving to Oregon to be with his Dad. Then I will be 2 down and 2 to go. L is supposed to be moving out at the end of the month. I'm not holding my breath that it will actually happen but that is the news I hear.
Still needing to get a second job so that I can get my bills paid. I'm so tired of being broke. Nobody will help me with the phones or groceries. K just pays his rent and that is all. I really need to be having them put their phones in their own names.
The first day of 6th grade was today for J. She had a good time and got off half a day for the first day. They go to regular hours starting tomorrow. I'm glad she's back in school and not sleeping all day but I also wish I didn't have to drive her up to my moms. Oh well only one more year and then she's going to school out here. It should fly right by like everything else does....
Saturday, August 13, 2016
Saturday..
August 13, 2016...
Almost K's birthday. He'll be 23. Hope he gets full time and starts saving for his own place. By the time I was his age I was married and having him. Working full time as well. I know it's hard but
we all have to start our lives at some point.
It's my weekend with no J. I try not to do anything on those weekends. The laundry gets done, the house gets cleaned, otherwise you'll find me in my bedroom either napping or watching Netflix and coloring. Ahh what a life. I need to figure out how to make more money so that I can actually go and do things, like travel and go riding. We have a lot of fun when we go riding.
Today my love is on the roof with his twin finishing the new roof on the garage. I have no plans except to change my sheets, and get my laundry done. Such the life right?
Things are starting to look up around here. 3 kids gone by the end of the month and only one left. I'm so excited I can barely stand myself. Hopefully K will be moving out with his cousin and another friend or maybe he'll find his own place, I don't know what will happen but it needs to happen soon or he's gonna have to start paying for his own phone and more on the rent so we aren't having to support him. I want to travel and get money saved so I'm not always so broke. I'm tired of being in poverty.
The day is hot and sunny as usual. My garden is looking really yellow and just the other day it was so dark and looking so good. I don't know what to do with it. The season is ending soon anyway I suppose and we will be on to fall and decorating for Halloween. I'm having to miss J's last Halloween party at school this year because they are moving me to the early shift and the other early person already has that whole week off. Oh well perhaps I can do the Christmas party. She'll be going into Jr. High next year. Can't wait until we are done with schools. That will be exciting.
Almost K's birthday. He'll be 23. Hope he gets full time and starts saving for his own place. By the time I was his age I was married and having him. Working full time as well. I know it's hard but
we all have to start our lives at some point.
It's my weekend with no J. I try not to do anything on those weekends. The laundry gets done, the house gets cleaned, otherwise you'll find me in my bedroom either napping or watching Netflix and coloring. Ahh what a life. I need to figure out how to make more money so that I can actually go and do things, like travel and go riding. We have a lot of fun when we go riding.
Today my love is on the roof with his twin finishing the new roof on the garage. I have no plans except to change my sheets, and get my laundry done. Such the life right?
Things are starting to look up around here. 3 kids gone by the end of the month and only one left. I'm so excited I can barely stand myself. Hopefully K will be moving out with his cousin and another friend or maybe he'll find his own place, I don't know what will happen but it needs to happen soon or he's gonna have to start paying for his own phone and more on the rent so we aren't having to support him. I want to travel and get money saved so I'm not always so broke. I'm tired of being in poverty.
The day is hot and sunny as usual. My garden is looking really yellow and just the other day it was so dark and looking so good. I don't know what to do with it. The season is ending soon anyway I suppose and we will be on to fall and decorating for Halloween. I'm having to miss J's last Halloween party at school this year because they are moving me to the early shift and the other early person already has that whole week off. Oh well perhaps I can do the Christmas party. She'll be going into Jr. High next year. Can't wait until we are done with schools. That will be exciting.
Thursday, August 11, 2016
Thursday
August 11, 2016....
I came home early today, I have my appointment with my therapist and had some other things to do as well but I was having a hard time sitting there reading with my stomach turning. It was so slow I didn't figure they would miss me anyway. Work has been really strange lately. Busy the last couple of days and then today, almost nothing. Not complaining.
Taking J to the store quick and then running a few other errands before my apt. I really hope that I don't have to go much longer because I can't keep paying this for therapy. I wish I was a counselor so I could make 50+ an hour. That would be so nice.
School starts for J on the 22nd. We take B to Utah State for school on the 20th, and I drop T at the airport on his way to Oregon where he is moving. That's 3 down and one to go. I think he will be the hardest to get out because he's so picky about who he lives with and what people do that I think he may need his own place. He needs a much better job for that.
I came home early today, I have my appointment with my therapist and had some other things to do as well but I was having a hard time sitting there reading with my stomach turning. It was so slow I didn't figure they would miss me anyway. Work has been really strange lately. Busy the last couple of days and then today, almost nothing. Not complaining.
Taking J to the store quick and then running a few other errands before my apt. I really hope that I don't have to go much longer because I can't keep paying this for therapy. I wish I was a counselor so I could make 50+ an hour. That would be so nice.
School starts for J on the 22nd. We take B to Utah State for school on the 20th, and I drop T at the airport on his way to Oregon where he is moving. That's 3 down and one to go. I think he will be the hardest to get out because he's so picky about who he lives with and what people do that I think he may need his own place. He needs a much better job for that.
Thursday, August 4, 2016
Thursday
August 4, 2016...
Woke up very late and was quite late for work, but better late than never I always say. Work was work, they are not going to replace Taylor buddy when he leaves in a couple weeks and so they are going to just make someone take the shift. I figured better to volunteer than be made to do it. My mom is ok with it but Jaz not so much. I'm not a morning person either so I'm not to thrilled either but I do get off at 2 which is nice.
Everything else is about the same here. My love will be home from out of town tomorrow and I'll get a week with him before he leaves again. T is moving out to Oregon on the 29th and I have to get him to the airport at 6. I'm hoping to go in late that day..
I don't think that K is saving to get out and I haven't heard anything about the full time status. I'm gonna have to tell him he needs to start looking for a full time job so that he can be supporting himself. They need to start taking on their own phone bills and such. I just can't keep supporting them non stop its killing me.
Hot as usual today. I didn't even get cold at work until I came back from break and felt the difference in the temperatures. Everyone had been complaining about it all day and I hadn't noticed because I came later and it was still warm. Ended up in my blanket by the end of the day though.
I swear sometimes we have to wear gloves just so our hands are warm enough to type. It really sucks.
Woke up very late and was quite late for work, but better late than never I always say. Work was work, they are not going to replace Taylor buddy when he leaves in a couple weeks and so they are going to just make someone take the shift. I figured better to volunteer than be made to do it. My mom is ok with it but Jaz not so much. I'm not a morning person either so I'm not to thrilled either but I do get off at 2 which is nice.
Everything else is about the same here. My love will be home from out of town tomorrow and I'll get a week with him before he leaves again. T is moving out to Oregon on the 29th and I have to get him to the airport at 6. I'm hoping to go in late that day..
I don't think that K is saving to get out and I haven't heard anything about the full time status. I'm gonna have to tell him he needs to start looking for a full time job so that he can be supporting himself. They need to start taking on their own phone bills and such. I just can't keep supporting them non stop its killing me.
Hot as usual today. I didn't even get cold at work until I came back from break and felt the difference in the temperatures. Everyone had been complaining about it all day and I hadn't noticed because I came later and it was still warm. Ended up in my blanket by the end of the day though.
I swear sometimes we have to wear gloves just so our hands are warm enough to type. It really sucks.
Tuesday, August 2, 2016
Tuesday..
August 2, 2016...
Stayed home again today. Had to take K to the Dr for his last appointment for his foot. Hoping to figure out why my insurance hasn't paid anything on it yet. He has a bill that is larger than B's for her surgery. I'm not understanding it. I really don't like my insurance company. The insurance for my prescriptions is the worst thing ever. I either get them through the mail or I pay a ton at the pharmacy. So far I have just been paying a ton.
I need to get back on track with my life and get a resume done and find me a better job. I don't know where but I know that there has got to be something out there for me that pays more money. I really need to be able to buy groceries. I'm so broke right now that I feel like it's the end of the world. I am contemplating a second job until I can get some of my bills paid.
This life really isn't all it's cracked up to be. I spent my entire childhood excited to grow up and be an adult and have a family and a husband. Wow, the fairy tale is nice isn't it. I wish they told us about the realities when we were growing up. Like you will be working your entire life to pay for the home you will hardly be in. Enjoy!
Stayed home again today. Had to take K to the Dr for his last appointment for his foot. Hoping to figure out why my insurance hasn't paid anything on it yet. He has a bill that is larger than B's for her surgery. I'm not understanding it. I really don't like my insurance company. The insurance for my prescriptions is the worst thing ever. I either get them through the mail or I pay a ton at the pharmacy. So far I have just been paying a ton.
I need to get back on track with my life and get a resume done and find me a better job. I don't know where but I know that there has got to be something out there for me that pays more money. I really need to be able to buy groceries. I'm so broke right now that I feel like it's the end of the world. I am contemplating a second job until I can get some of my bills paid.
This life really isn't all it's cracked up to be. I spent my entire childhood excited to grow up and be an adult and have a family and a husband. Wow, the fairy tale is nice isn't it. I wish they told us about the realities when we were growing up. Like you will be working your entire life to pay for the home you will hardly be in. Enjoy!
Monday..
August 1, 2016....
I am actually writing on the 2nd as I just noticed it is almost 1. I went in late for work today and have to go in late tomorrow or not at all as I have to figure out how I'm gonna get my prescription
I am completely out of my Zoloft and it's giving me great stress. I keep telling myself to breath
everything will be just fine.
I'm completely out of money and don't know when I'm gonna get the child support. I have been
getting it on Tuesday but because I desperately need it, I don't have a single call from them today.
So depressing. We are also about out of food. I am not sure what to do for dinner tomorrow but as
T says "That's when you get creative". Tomorrow I think I'll try something with hamburger and
potatoes. Maybe I can stop at my moms house and pick up some cheese on the way home from K's appointment. Either way I really am gonna have to be creative because I am out of all starches except a few potatoes. I made two different boxes of pasta today so they could have their
pick and still get something in their stomachs. I'm still hungry so they probably are too.
I don't like being broke but I'm trying to remain optimistic that something will happen to turn things around for us.
August already. Hot as can be today just as it's been for weeks now. I love summer and it makes me sad that I can't tolerate the high temperatures because I sure like to be warm. School will be starting back up soon. So far I have bought J a binder, a folder, and a shirt. Big spender, ya that's me.
Wish I had money to take her to the mall and let her shop and be all spoiled, but I so don't. Maybe in another lifetime.
Things are good for me and my love. He is out of town for work in Moab this week. (He is also working in another city but can't remember what that one was called.. Lola or something) Bless him working in the heat day after day. I couldn't do it. Although I complain on a daily basis about being cold my whole day at work and then coming home and being cold again, he would probably rather be sitting cold in an office all day rather than burning up, but he gets to travel, make the big bucks, and see the world go on while he works. I'm very proud of him. He has a really cool job.
I am actually writing on the 2nd as I just noticed it is almost 1. I went in late for work today and have to go in late tomorrow or not at all as I have to figure out how I'm gonna get my prescription
I am completely out of my Zoloft and it's giving me great stress. I keep telling myself to breath
everything will be just fine.
I'm completely out of money and don't know when I'm gonna get the child support. I have been
getting it on Tuesday but because I desperately need it, I don't have a single call from them today.
So depressing. We are also about out of food. I am not sure what to do for dinner tomorrow but as
T says "That's when you get creative". Tomorrow I think I'll try something with hamburger and
potatoes. Maybe I can stop at my moms house and pick up some cheese on the way home from K's appointment. Either way I really am gonna have to be creative because I am out of all starches except a few potatoes. I made two different boxes of pasta today so they could have their
pick and still get something in their stomachs. I'm still hungry so they probably are too.
I don't like being broke but I'm trying to remain optimistic that something will happen to turn things around for us.
August already. Hot as can be today just as it's been for weeks now. I love summer and it makes me sad that I can't tolerate the high temperatures because I sure like to be warm. School will be starting back up soon. So far I have bought J a binder, a folder, and a shirt. Big spender, ya that's me.
Wish I had money to take her to the mall and let her shop and be all spoiled, but I so don't. Maybe in another lifetime.
Things are good for me and my love. He is out of town for work in Moab this week. (He is also working in another city but can't remember what that one was called.. Lola or something) Bless him working in the heat day after day. I couldn't do it. Although I complain on a daily basis about being cold my whole day at work and then coming home and being cold again, he would probably rather be sitting cold in an office all day rather than burning up, but he gets to travel, make the big bucks, and see the world go on while he works. I'm very proud of him. He has a really cool job.
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