Saturday....
Hey there sorry I have not been on in ions. Right now there are a ton of cops in front of my house dealing with I don't even know what , there are a ton of cop cars. There were a ton of paramedics and a fire engine. I don't know what is going on but I hope my husband is ok. I called some people trailer trash and was told off by a couple of cops and I cant say I haven't been drinking because that would be a lie. I have drunk a lot but because I just really don't like dealing with all the traffic across the road.
I wonder though why it is my husband c an be drunk off his ass and nobody cares. Everybody takes his word as gold and I should just go back home and not worry about it because I'm just starting shit. I just want to know my husband is alive. But the drug dealers have all the rights and we have none. I'm getting me gun and a permit and I''m shooting the next drug dealing asshole that crosses my property line. I'm done.
My daughter hasn't been able to come out and ride her new bike at all all summer long because of these people because she's scared and these cops do nothing about it . nothing. I'm done having no right against these bullshit criminals Guess I'll get a gun and become one.
Saturday, August 12, 2017
Monday, April 10, 2017
Monday
April 10, 2017....
I swear I don't know what I do during the night but I've hurt my neck again. I have pain when I turn my head to the right. It's gotten better through the day but still hurts right now. I left work early because let's face it It was slow. we were working on 20 minutes between calls. I'm hoping that tomorrow is busier because otherwise it just drags on forever.
J is on spring break so she's home this week. I don't have to drive to sugarhouse in the morning and I can come straight home which is really nice. I get home around 230 instead of 345-4. I like the extra minute although lately I don't do anything but read and watch greys anatomy. It should just be called greys addiction. I'll be through it soon and then maybe I'll get through out of my room and venture on to something else.
Feeling very mondayish today and so Im not planning on cooking dinner. They can fend for themselves. We have leftovers if they care to look. I swear the leftovers just pile up until there is no room and then get thrown away. I should just throw them away to begin with. Or take them to the corner to the homeless people. They only want money though.
I feel in a rut. I don't know how to get out of it. I am so lazy feeling yet I've started shaking again and I know I have to break down and go in to the Dr. but my insurance sucks and I don't have any money. My meds aren't right I'm sure but they need my blood to change it and I really need to talk to my Dr. about my other meds. grrrr why can't we all just be wealthy and able to take care of our health?
The snow we got on Saturday night has completely melted and the flowers are bouncing back. My spring flowers bloom so early that they are already starting to die off. (my daffodils, and Hyacinths) I still have a couple more tulips to bloom and may pick up some more flowers. I think I'm going to do a lot of flowerpots this year, just to make the rest of the yard prettier than just my front flowerbed. I don't have anything in the corner but I think Im gonna sprinkle wild flower seeds and see what grows in there. I also want to hang some plants or flowers from the fence so it brings some color to that side of the house.
Every bit of improvement is good. I really want to get the side of the porch done to match the front side. We have the bushes there since we moved in but the other side is just dirt, weeds and the catbox. (or so he thinks.)
Maybe if I can get the dirt part done with one check and then get the bushes with another. I'll have to get them bigger than the last ones so they are the same size as the ones we already have. I also need to fill that side with more soil because we are back down to sand. I am certain that's why they call this city Sandy. Because there is more sand than dirt no matter how much good soil you put down. The sand seems to eat it. With the weather getting better I'm excited to plan something for my yard. Im determined to get a flowery bush in the back corner by spike. Last year I had one but it died before I could get it planted. Wont do that again.
I swear I don't know what I do during the night but I've hurt my neck again. I have pain when I turn my head to the right. It's gotten better through the day but still hurts right now. I left work early because let's face it It was slow. we were working on 20 minutes between calls. I'm hoping that tomorrow is busier because otherwise it just drags on forever.
J is on spring break so she's home this week. I don't have to drive to sugarhouse in the morning and I can come straight home which is really nice. I get home around 230 instead of 345-4. I like the extra minute although lately I don't do anything but read and watch greys anatomy. It should just be called greys addiction. I'll be through it soon and then maybe I'll get through out of my room and venture on to something else.
Feeling very mondayish today and so Im not planning on cooking dinner. They can fend for themselves. We have leftovers if they care to look. I swear the leftovers just pile up until there is no room and then get thrown away. I should just throw them away to begin with. Or take them to the corner to the homeless people. They only want money though.
I feel in a rut. I don't know how to get out of it. I am so lazy feeling yet I've started shaking again and I know I have to break down and go in to the Dr. but my insurance sucks and I don't have any money. My meds aren't right I'm sure but they need my blood to change it and I really need to talk to my Dr. about my other meds. grrrr why can't we all just be wealthy and able to take care of our health?
The snow we got on Saturday night has completely melted and the flowers are bouncing back. My spring flowers bloom so early that they are already starting to die off. (my daffodils, and Hyacinths) I still have a couple more tulips to bloom and may pick up some more flowers. I think I'm going to do a lot of flowerpots this year, just to make the rest of the yard prettier than just my front flowerbed. I don't have anything in the corner but I think Im gonna sprinkle wild flower seeds and see what grows in there. I also want to hang some plants or flowers from the fence so it brings some color to that side of the house.
Every bit of improvement is good. I really want to get the side of the porch done to match the front side. We have the bushes there since we moved in but the other side is just dirt, weeds and the catbox. (or so he thinks.)
Maybe if I can get the dirt part done with one check and then get the bushes with another. I'll have to get them bigger than the last ones so they are the same size as the ones we already have. I also need to fill that side with more soil because we are back down to sand. I am certain that's why they call this city Sandy. Because there is more sand than dirt no matter how much good soil you put down. The sand seems to eat it. With the weather getting better I'm excited to plan something for my yard. Im determined to get a flowery bush in the back corner by spike. Last year I had one but it died before I could get it planted. Wont do that again.
Saturday, April 1, 2017
Friday
March 31, 2017...
Hello Friday. I got home to my love cleaning the house. I love that. Made dinner, did some laundry and drank some wine. What a nice evening. I wish more Fridays were this great.
Everyone here is doing good.
I still have a cold and I'm getting really tired of it. I would go in to the Dr. but I can't afford to.
I have to cover the deductible before they will pay anything and I just cant afford that. I haven't even been in to have my blood checked even though I was supposed to do that about a month and half ago. Just can't afford it.
Hello Friday. I got home to my love cleaning the house. I love that. Made dinner, did some laundry and drank some wine. What a nice evening. I wish more Fridays were this great.
Everyone here is doing good.
I still have a cold and I'm getting really tired of it. I would go in to the Dr. but I can't afford to.
I have to cover the deductible before they will pay anything and I just cant afford that. I haven't even been in to have my blood checked even though I was supposed to do that about a month and half ago. Just can't afford it.
Monday, March 20, 2017
Monday March 20, 2017
Got to work on time today, barely. Couldn't sign on because our servers were down. Spent most of the hour and half I was there in the bathroom with severe stomach pain. I puked twice and was red and sweaty when I finally threw it in and left. I got home and spent another two hours like that until I was ok enough to get a heat pad on my stomach and crawl into bed. After sleeping the entire day and finally waking up after 6 I feel empty and hungry but at least not in pain.
During all that my love worked a graveyard last night and hadn't slept much but got up to get my license plates at the dealership and go to visit my mom and get J from school. I didn't have to ask him. I didn't even have to get out of bed. He woke up and went for me because he knew I was sick. I don't know where I found him but I'm sure that he's an angel straight from heaven. I did pray to god to send the person her made for me. I always knew it was him. He's wonderful.
I am really upset I had to miss work though because with the servers down it would be so busy when they cam up. My friends deserve treats tomorrow except I didn't get out so I'll get some tomorrow. Hoping tomorrow will be better and I won't get sick again. I thought those horrendous episodes were behind me but apparently not. At least they happen less frequently than before.
Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully it will be a much, much better day.
Sunday, March 19, 2017
Sunday
March 19, 2017....
What a weekend it has been. Friday after work I went to a friends daughter who does some sort
of pressure point massage. She worked on my neck and Saturday it didn't hurt at all. Today it's been sore but I got a deep tissue massage from a friend, and I can now rotate my head in a circle again. It's still sore on the left side but it's so much better. I can turn to the left and right, its wonderful. I'll have to get another in a couple weeks so that I can keep it from getting to tight. Hopefully soon it will be healed. She told me today anywhere from six weeks to three months for most people to heal unless I get an adjustment from a chiropractor. I don't really like chiropractors but everyone keeps recommending them to me. I don't know.....
The weekends go way to fast and I really wish I could just have time to get stuff done like spring cleaning and yard work and planting a garden. By the time we get home on Friday and it seems only minutes until Monday. wish it went just as fast the other way around. Show up at work on Monday and blink yourself over to Friday... if only.
I need a new job. I'm starting to feel as though I'm in a rut like when I was in retail. I don't know it's an easy job and I spend a lot of time reading but I still just think that I would rather be doing something besides just sitting. I don't mind answering the calls and taking the orders, its the whole sitting in the confined spot all day with only a short leash , or chain as we call it, to move from side to side. Plus when it's slow you are just sitting there either reading, talking, or staring at the wall wishing the sentence would end and you could leave.
On to other things, my flower garden is already looking great. My fairy garden is expanding and the flowers just keep blooming. The daffodils are bloomed, and three of the hyacinths have bloomed. the tulips are not far behind. I can't wait until the day we can afford to redo the yard. We need to dig the whole thing up and replace it with 3 feet of good top soil, then sod. Our yard now is basically just weeds. The grass gets choked out by them even when we spray.
I would really like to have a tree out front to help shade our room and K's room. They get so hot with the sun on the brick all day. We could save money if we had some shade going on. I'm excited for the warmer temperatures and hope that it doesn't get extremely hot extremely fast.
What a weekend it has been. Friday after work I went to a friends daughter who does some sort
of pressure point massage. She worked on my neck and Saturday it didn't hurt at all. Today it's been sore but I got a deep tissue massage from a friend, and I can now rotate my head in a circle again. It's still sore on the left side but it's so much better. I can turn to the left and right, its wonderful. I'll have to get another in a couple weeks so that I can keep it from getting to tight. Hopefully soon it will be healed. She told me today anywhere from six weeks to three months for most people to heal unless I get an adjustment from a chiropractor. I don't really like chiropractors but everyone keeps recommending them to me. I don't know.....
The weekends go way to fast and I really wish I could just have time to get stuff done like spring cleaning and yard work and planting a garden. By the time we get home on Friday and it seems only minutes until Monday. wish it went just as fast the other way around. Show up at work on Monday and blink yourself over to Friday... if only.
I need a new job. I'm starting to feel as though I'm in a rut like when I was in retail. I don't know it's an easy job and I spend a lot of time reading but I still just think that I would rather be doing something besides just sitting. I don't mind answering the calls and taking the orders, its the whole sitting in the confined spot all day with only a short leash , or chain as we call it, to move from side to side. Plus when it's slow you are just sitting there either reading, talking, or staring at the wall wishing the sentence would end and you could leave.
On to other things, my flower garden is already looking great. My fairy garden is expanding and the flowers just keep blooming. The daffodils are bloomed, and three of the hyacinths have bloomed. the tulips are not far behind. I can't wait until the day we can afford to redo the yard. We need to dig the whole thing up and replace it with 3 feet of good top soil, then sod. Our yard now is basically just weeds. The grass gets choked out by them even when we spray.
I would really like to have a tree out front to help shade our room and K's room. They get so hot with the sun on the brick all day. We could save money if we had some shade going on. I'm excited for the warmer temperatures and hope that it doesn't get extremely hot extremely fast.
Thursday, March 9, 2017
Thursday....
March 9, 2017....
This week at work it's been incredibly busy. We have only been down one person but it has been back to back calls all day until today around 11 at which point it died down to 10 minutes between calls. Needless to say I finished a book I've been trying to finish for days, and I got to chapter 6 of my next book. Lately I have been getting books at the dollar store and so I have been reading a lot of random things. Most of them are about cops finding bad guy killers. There have only been about 2 so far that I didn't even think were worth the dollar but I am liking having a lot of reading materials around. I've been watching Gilmore girls again and so haven't been reading at home but have time to read at work.
Tomorrow is my loves birthday and J gave him the present she made him. It's a hard back book about him. She wrote all kinds of nice things and there are pictures and the Title and Author on the spine. There is even an author page with her picture on it. He says it's the best present ever. I'm glad he likes it, it's wonderful.
We got a new car. A black 2016 Ford Fusion Titanium. It is fully loaded with remote start, heated front seats, traction, control, backup camera, stereo, CD, Bluetooth, the list just goes on and on. We love it. We are getting the windows tinted on Saturday and so then it will really be black.
This week at work it's been incredibly busy. We have only been down one person but it has been back to back calls all day until today around 11 at which point it died down to 10 minutes between calls. Needless to say I finished a book I've been trying to finish for days, and I got to chapter 6 of my next book. Lately I have been getting books at the dollar store and so I have been reading a lot of random things. Most of them are about cops finding bad guy killers. There have only been about 2 so far that I didn't even think were worth the dollar but I am liking having a lot of reading materials around. I've been watching Gilmore girls again and so haven't been reading at home but have time to read at work.
Tomorrow is my loves birthday and J gave him the present she made him. It's a hard back book about him. She wrote all kinds of nice things and there are pictures and the Title and Author on the spine. There is even an author page with her picture on it. He says it's the best present ever. I'm glad he likes it, it's wonderful.
We got a new car. A black 2016 Ford Fusion Titanium. It is fully loaded with remote start, heated front seats, traction, control, backup camera, stereo, CD, Bluetooth, the list just goes on and on. We love it. We are getting the windows tinted on Saturday and so then it will really be black.
Thursday, March 2, 2017
Thursday
March 2, 2017...
I dislike the insurance company we are with. Ive had to pay for my own rental and they still don't have me a check so I'm going to have to go and extend the rental which will cost me more money just because they have no sense of urgency. I dislike them and I'm switching as soon as this is all over.
My neck still hurts and I'm not liking the way this year is going already. One day I hope to have a mellow year with no drama of any kind including car accidents and insurance claims.
I dislike the insurance company we are with. Ive had to pay for my own rental and they still don't have me a check so I'm going to have to go and extend the rental which will cost me more money just because they have no sense of urgency. I dislike them and I'm switching as soon as this is all over.
My neck still hurts and I'm not liking the way this year is going already. One day I hope to have a mellow year with no drama of any kind including car accidents and insurance claims.
Sunday, February 26, 2017
Sunday
February 26, 2017....
So again it's been a few. I'm gonna go back to Thursday, February 23rd. J and I left at 5:15 am to head out to my moms to drop her off. It was snowing like every other morning but it wasn't too bad. It was slushy and of course slick from the cold temps and wind. The sun of course wouldn't be up for hours yet and thankfully traffic isn't too awful that time of morning. I was in the middle lane slid a little and switched lanes so I wasn't around traffic.
Before we even knew what happened we had spun across three lanes of traffic and slammed into the cement barrier with such force it blew the entire back window out. I still don't know if the loud bang was the window exploding or the car hitting but when we stopped we were against the wall facing oncoming traffic. My neck was killing and I was so worried J was hurt. Once we established we were both ok except for the sore necks and backs. I hit the emergency lights and turned my headlights down so I wasn't blinding traffic and I called my love. Better than the cops when you need action. Him and L were there within 15 minutes and got my car moved off the freeway and the insurance called and reported and us home and resting with Ibuprofen. I thank God so much for that man. He is all about the action. Checking on us and cleaning the house. I stayed home a couple days and made Jazmin stay home too. It still went so fast. We haven't heard from the insurance since they had the car towed here. I am praying they at the very least give enough to cover what we still owe on it. I'm assuming everything will work out ok since I just prayed and left it to God. I just couldn't be bothered being in such pain and stressing about what I'm gonna do for a car. Hopefully they will let us know tomorrow.
Today was the first day my arms didn't hurt from gripping the steering wheel. I can now tilt my head back as well as from side to side. I say that's progress. Unfortunately tomorrow is Monday and work awaits. I'm hoping I get to be in the training class to mix things up a little but I'll probably just be at my desk all day. Yay!! I'll have to stand and stretch a lot so that my back and neck don't get all stiff again. Oh boy my life. I really hope this year gets better than it has started. It hasn't been bad just a few trials already what with the old facebook friend of my loves, and the bankruptcy BS of the exes, now the accident and my car pretty much totaled. At least it's never a dull moment....
So again it's been a few. I'm gonna go back to Thursday, February 23rd. J and I left at 5:15 am to head out to my moms to drop her off. It was snowing like every other morning but it wasn't too bad. It was slushy and of course slick from the cold temps and wind. The sun of course wouldn't be up for hours yet and thankfully traffic isn't too awful that time of morning. I was in the middle lane slid a little and switched lanes so I wasn't around traffic.
Before we even knew what happened we had spun across three lanes of traffic and slammed into the cement barrier with such force it blew the entire back window out. I still don't know if the loud bang was the window exploding or the car hitting but when we stopped we were against the wall facing oncoming traffic. My neck was killing and I was so worried J was hurt. Once we established we were both ok except for the sore necks and backs. I hit the emergency lights and turned my headlights down so I wasn't blinding traffic and I called my love. Better than the cops when you need action. Him and L were there within 15 minutes and got my car moved off the freeway and the insurance called and reported and us home and resting with Ibuprofen. I thank God so much for that man. He is all about the action. Checking on us and cleaning the house. I stayed home a couple days and made Jazmin stay home too. It still went so fast. We haven't heard from the insurance since they had the car towed here. I am praying they at the very least give enough to cover what we still owe on it. I'm assuming everything will work out ok since I just prayed and left it to God. I just couldn't be bothered being in such pain and stressing about what I'm gonna do for a car. Hopefully they will let us know tomorrow.
Today was the first day my arms didn't hurt from gripping the steering wheel. I can now tilt my head back as well as from side to side. I say that's progress. Unfortunately tomorrow is Monday and work awaits. I'm hoping I get to be in the training class to mix things up a little but I'll probably just be at my desk all day. Yay!! I'll have to stand and stretch a lot so that my back and neck don't get all stiff again. Oh boy my life. I really hope this year gets better than it has started. It hasn't been bad just a few trials already what with the old facebook friend of my loves, and the bankruptcy BS of the exes, now the accident and my car pretty much totaled. At least it's never a dull moment....
Tuesday, February 21, 2017
Tuesday
February 21, 2017...
My boy is back for a visit. T arrived with his cousin this afternoon and will be staying here for a week visiting us for his birthday. We had pizza for dinner and that cost a fortune. Since when did you have to spend a hundred dollars to feed your family? Granted I've got 2 extra people to feed for the next week but it was still cheaper than going to Olive Garden where I was planning on taking him.
Work tomorrow and the time is creeping up on me. Wish the time home out weighed the time spent in the workplace. Maybe then working would seem more worthwhile.
My taxes finally went through. Glad and relieved and already paying bills off. I'm so grateful that we will be able to take our vacation and really need to start planning that. J is getting excited to be going somewhere new and I'm excited to be going somewhere new. The fam is going to Mesa Verda this year which is a bummer because I really like it there, but I really can't afford two trips. We can go camping with TA and her family because they own the land so we wouldn't have to pay for camping and it would be shared food so less expensive there too. We will have to go camping with them so that we can do both this year. I would also like to go camping with our kids sometime. Maybe when N gets home if it's still warm we can all go camping as a family.(Not that half the kids talk but we can do our best)
My boy is back for a visit. T arrived with his cousin this afternoon and will be staying here for a week visiting us for his birthday. We had pizza for dinner and that cost a fortune. Since when did you have to spend a hundred dollars to feed your family? Granted I've got 2 extra people to feed for the next week but it was still cheaper than going to Olive Garden where I was planning on taking him.
Work tomorrow and the time is creeping up on me. Wish the time home out weighed the time spent in the workplace. Maybe then working would seem more worthwhile.
My taxes finally went through. Glad and relieved and already paying bills off. I'm so grateful that we will be able to take our vacation and really need to start planning that. J is getting excited to be going somewhere new and I'm excited to be going somewhere new. The fam is going to Mesa Verda this year which is a bummer because I really like it there, but I really can't afford two trips. We can go camping with TA and her family because they own the land so we wouldn't have to pay for camping and it would be shared food so less expensive there too. We will have to go camping with them so that we can do both this year. I would also like to go camping with our kids sometime. Maybe when N gets home if it's still warm we can all go camping as a family.(Not that half the kids talk but we can do our best)
Thursday, February 16, 2017
Thursday...
February 16, 2017....
Getting ready for the big birthday party Saturday. J had her birthday last weekend but was with her donor. She had a party there as well but didn't get to of course celebrate with us and her friends here. Still feeling bad that we are missing her little friend K, who she has been friends with since they were 5. She has decided not to see her Dad anymore so now she can't see J because she lives with my love and he is K's Uncle. It's sad that adults can't get along for the sake of the children in all situations.
We have a piñata and a treasure hunt. Presents, BBQ, cake and ice cream. That should eat up the time and then my love and I have plans later that evening to go to a friends house to see a new up and coming local band. Can't remember their name but the last time we went we had a good time. I'll just be glad when the weekend is over. I so prefer quiet weekends at home. It's not a bad thing to go out now and then though I suppose.
T is apparently moving to Idaho with his friend/brother again. They had an argument the last time around but hopefully this time will be better. I guess he already has a job and has been waiting to get an apartment. Hopefully that goes through soon. I have to call them back tomorrow to give my reference. Time slips past so fast or I would have already done it. Yesterday I fell asleep and tonight I was busy with party stuff. Tomorrow I get off early. Hopefully I will either not miss their call or I will just call them when I get home because I'm off early to get ready for the party. Hoping to have Monday off to. Mostly because I just want to recoup.
Getting ready for the big birthday party Saturday. J had her birthday last weekend but was with her donor. She had a party there as well but didn't get to of course celebrate with us and her friends here. Still feeling bad that we are missing her little friend K, who she has been friends with since they were 5. She has decided not to see her Dad anymore so now she can't see J because she lives with my love and he is K's Uncle. It's sad that adults can't get along for the sake of the children in all situations.
We have a piñata and a treasure hunt. Presents, BBQ, cake and ice cream. That should eat up the time and then my love and I have plans later that evening to go to a friends house to see a new up and coming local band. Can't remember their name but the last time we went we had a good time. I'll just be glad when the weekend is over. I so prefer quiet weekends at home. It's not a bad thing to go out now and then though I suppose.
T is apparently moving to Idaho with his friend/brother again. They had an argument the last time around but hopefully this time will be better. I guess he already has a job and has been waiting to get an apartment. Hopefully that goes through soon. I have to call them back tomorrow to give my reference. Time slips past so fast or I would have already done it. Yesterday I fell asleep and tonight I was busy with party stuff. Tomorrow I get off early. Hopefully I will either not miss their call or I will just call them when I get home because I'm off early to get ready for the party. Hoping to have Monday off to. Mostly because I just want to recoup.
Friday, February 10, 2017
Thursday
February 9, 2017....
Work, Parent teacher conference, the store, Birthday dinner for J and then home. I'm exhausted. Sleeping soon. Got to leave work at 1 today. Love leaving early although once it's over it's not so bad to be there ha ha
Gave J her phone tonight when we got home. She was so excited to get it. She was squealing like a baby pig. She has already been texting some of her friends and listening to music on it. I'm sure she's also getting a bunch of games loaded up. Kids. I'm going to get me a new phone when I get my taxes back. Mine is pretty much toast. I'm still hoping that I'm in the race. Hopefully mine will be accepted first. I don't like being this person that has to do this but he won't do what he was ordered to do in court and so I feel I have the right to the tax credit. I pay a lot to support her since she lives here with me. He does pay his child support but only because I'm going through ORS. Thank god for them.
The weekend approaches. Today was a beautiful day. 65 degrees. I swear last week was snowing and raining and I didn't think it would ever end. This week my tulips and hyacinths are coming up and we keep seeing Robins in the neighborhood. A co worker said she had been starting to see flies. I could do with out the bugs but whatever. I don't have the nightmare bugs like they do in Rose park at the shack. I saw it was sold. Hope they enjoy the frozen pipes and the outlets that are not even hooked up to anything so you can't use them. The giant cockroaches and centipedes.... oh yes hope they enjoy it all. I certainly don't miss it.
Work, Parent teacher conference, the store, Birthday dinner for J and then home. I'm exhausted. Sleeping soon. Got to leave work at 1 today. Love leaving early although once it's over it's not so bad to be there ha ha
Gave J her phone tonight when we got home. She was so excited to get it. She was squealing like a baby pig. She has already been texting some of her friends and listening to music on it. I'm sure she's also getting a bunch of games loaded up. Kids. I'm going to get me a new phone when I get my taxes back. Mine is pretty much toast. I'm still hoping that I'm in the race. Hopefully mine will be accepted first. I don't like being this person that has to do this but he won't do what he was ordered to do in court and so I feel I have the right to the tax credit. I pay a lot to support her since she lives here with me. He does pay his child support but only because I'm going through ORS. Thank god for them.
The weekend approaches. Today was a beautiful day. 65 degrees. I swear last week was snowing and raining and I didn't think it would ever end. This week my tulips and hyacinths are coming up and we keep seeing Robins in the neighborhood. A co worker said she had been starting to see flies. I could do with out the bugs but whatever. I don't have the nightmare bugs like they do in Rose park at the shack. I saw it was sold. Hope they enjoy the frozen pipes and the outlets that are not even hooked up to anything so you can't use them. The giant cockroaches and centipedes.... oh yes hope they enjoy it all. I certainly don't miss it.
Wednesday, February 8, 2017
Wednesday
February 8, 2017...
Was having a good day until I found out my love got his taxes back and I'm still waiting to even hear if mine have been accepted. Apparently they are on hold because of some new law to do with taxes that have a child tax credit or an earned income and mine have both. Fun. Guess I keep waiting.
We still got J her birthday presents. My love got her a drum set and I got her a phone. She's going to be really excited. She's totally not expecting the drum set but will love it I'm sure. The other two living in the basement might not like it at all, but she will love it. Then all she needs is a keyboard and microphone. She can use her ukulele instead of a guitar ha ha.
T is coming to visit me in two weeks. I'm pretty excited to see him. I believe he shaved his head which will be strange but I've missed him and I'm still excited to see him.
Was having a good day until I found out my love got his taxes back and I'm still waiting to even hear if mine have been accepted. Apparently they are on hold because of some new law to do with taxes that have a child tax credit or an earned income and mine have both. Fun. Guess I keep waiting.
We still got J her birthday presents. My love got her a drum set and I got her a phone. She's going to be really excited. She's totally not expecting the drum set but will love it I'm sure. The other two living in the basement might not like it at all, but she will love it. Then all she needs is a keyboard and microphone. She can use her ukulele instead of a guitar ha ha.
T is coming to visit me in two weeks. I'm pretty excited to see him. I believe he shaved his head which will be strange but I've missed him and I'm still excited to see him.
Sunday, February 5, 2017
Sunday
February 5, 2017....
Super bowl Sunday. It wasn't really too exciting. I'm not sure the excitement of the game but I do enjoy having the guests and the delicious food. Had a good time but my love had to work graveyard tonight so that kind of sucks. The guests were here a little late for a school night but oh well what are you going to do. I just requested the day off but I doubt it will go through. We are expected to be busy this week.
I really don't enjoy my job. It's work, it gives me a pay check but I think something is wrong if you feel like you are imprisoned each day that the door slams closed behind you. I really don't know why it is so awful. I know I wouldn't mind it near as much if I got to get up and do paperwork now and then or something. We don't even get to touch paper and I really get tired of sitting in one spot all day long. Well hmmmm it went through. I'm still going to try and go in but this way if I don't make it or I'm late I can just be covered with my time.
I've always wanted to be a writer but as you can see I'll never really be good enough. Weird thing happened to me once though, I was in Wendover with some friends and we were waiting for a fun bus to pick us up and a complete stranger walked over and was talking to my friend, While they were talking he looked over at me and just said "Why haven't you wrote your book yet?" He then told us he was a little psychic and that I'm supposed to be writing a book. I have many ideas but never know how to get them started. I feel like it doesn't get any sort of description until about the 5th edit. ha ha I wish I was better at it.
The weather is supposed to be a little warmer this week and although there is supposed to be some rain/snow mixes this week the temps were all closer to the 40s if not over 40. We went up North to Clearfield this weekend and they have several feet of snow. I was shocked since my snow is melted, and my tulips are coming up. I told her I was sorry they were still enjoying winter when down South a bit we were starting to see the signs of spring. I prefer the signs of spring even though I know we could get several more snow storms before we can start enjoying the spring weather. I live in Utah where I have personally experienced every season in the span of one day. You get used to it. We just throw a coat on with our shorts and flip flops. It's all good.
My work is confused on temperatures lately. Been there for going on 9 years and I have told everyone that I work in the arctic because it's always so cold no matter the weather outside. The last few weeks however I have had to strip down and instead of layering a thermal under every shirt I now just wear a tank and flannel or sweatshirt. I haven't had to wrap up in my blanket for quite some time either. Perhaps I'm starting to get hot flashes ha ha I work with ladies going through that right now. Seems pretty miserable.
Super bowl Sunday. It wasn't really too exciting. I'm not sure the excitement of the game but I do enjoy having the guests and the delicious food. Had a good time but my love had to work graveyard tonight so that kind of sucks. The guests were here a little late for a school night but oh well what are you going to do. I just requested the day off but I doubt it will go through. We are expected to be busy this week.
I really don't enjoy my job. It's work, it gives me a pay check but I think something is wrong if you feel like you are imprisoned each day that the door slams closed behind you. I really don't know why it is so awful. I know I wouldn't mind it near as much if I got to get up and do paperwork now and then or something. We don't even get to touch paper and I really get tired of sitting in one spot all day long. Well hmmmm it went through. I'm still going to try and go in but this way if I don't make it or I'm late I can just be covered with my time.
I've always wanted to be a writer but as you can see I'll never really be good enough. Weird thing happened to me once though, I was in Wendover with some friends and we were waiting for a fun bus to pick us up and a complete stranger walked over and was talking to my friend, While they were talking he looked over at me and just said "Why haven't you wrote your book yet?" He then told us he was a little psychic and that I'm supposed to be writing a book. I have many ideas but never know how to get them started. I feel like it doesn't get any sort of description until about the 5th edit. ha ha I wish I was better at it.
The weather is supposed to be a little warmer this week and although there is supposed to be some rain/snow mixes this week the temps were all closer to the 40s if not over 40. We went up North to Clearfield this weekend and they have several feet of snow. I was shocked since my snow is melted, and my tulips are coming up. I told her I was sorry they were still enjoying winter when down South a bit we were starting to see the signs of spring. I prefer the signs of spring even though I know we could get several more snow storms before we can start enjoying the spring weather. I live in Utah where I have personally experienced every season in the span of one day. You get used to it. We just throw a coat on with our shorts and flip flops. It's all good.
My work is confused on temperatures lately. Been there for going on 9 years and I have told everyone that I work in the arctic because it's always so cold no matter the weather outside. The last few weeks however I have had to strip down and instead of layering a thermal under every shirt I now just wear a tank and flannel or sweatshirt. I haven't had to wrap up in my blanket for quite some time either. Perhaps I'm starting to get hot flashes ha ha I work with ladies going through that right now. Seems pretty miserable.
Wednesday, February 1, 2017
wednesday
February 1, 2017....
Supposed to be the month of love. Welcome February, I hope you bring an early Spring. I'm so tired of being cold. I'm ready to work out in the dirt and grow flowers and vegies. I'm ready for sunshine on my skin. Today is gray as usual. It's also very cold and smoggy. We are supposed to get more rain and snow starting tomorrow I guess. Yay..... not
Don't really remember what I wrote last night but I know I was livid. Still waiting to hear if my taxes cleared. Not sure what is taking that so long but I haven't gotten the accepted email yet. Usually my return is on its way by now. I'm scared Donor is gonna get that credit as well. He already gets out of paying every living thing as far as bills and houses go. Now he's living with his brother and not even paying his rent anymore. whatever. He'll never admit to the damage he's done and he'll never stand up and pay it anyway. I hope I get the tax credit. Our papers every other year or "to who it best serves" well that is definitely me since I'm still paying all my bills instead of shirking my responsibilities. I hope Karma kicks his ass good because he is so not a good person.
I need to leave it to God because it's driving me to higher levels of anxiety. I also need to talk to my doctor about getting a higher dose of anxiety meds because this one doesn't seem to be working so well anymore. I'm falling a part and getting old.
Supposed to be the month of love. Welcome February, I hope you bring an early Spring. I'm so tired of being cold. I'm ready to work out in the dirt and grow flowers and vegies. I'm ready for sunshine on my skin. Today is gray as usual. It's also very cold and smoggy. We are supposed to get more rain and snow starting tomorrow I guess. Yay..... not
Don't really remember what I wrote last night but I know I was livid. Still waiting to hear if my taxes cleared. Not sure what is taking that so long but I haven't gotten the accepted email yet. Usually my return is on its way by now. I'm scared Donor is gonna get that credit as well. He already gets out of paying every living thing as far as bills and houses go. Now he's living with his brother and not even paying his rent anymore. whatever. He'll never admit to the damage he's done and he'll never stand up and pay it anyway. I hope I get the tax credit. Our papers every other year or "to who it best serves" well that is definitely me since I'm still paying all my bills instead of shirking my responsibilities. I hope Karma kicks his ass good because he is so not a good person.
I need to leave it to God because it's driving me to higher levels of anxiety. I also need to talk to my doctor about getting a higher dose of anxiety meds because this one doesn't seem to be working so well anymore. I'm falling a part and getting old.
Tuesday, January 31, 2017
Tuesday
January 31, 2017....
Tuesday. Not much happens on Tuesday that is good. I'll start with my blessings, no snow today, even though there was also not really any sun. I had a good day at work as far as things go. Got J ok and we got home without too much delay. I don't know what is happening with my taxes but I do know that I'm still praying they get in before his do. I really need to get some of my bills paid. I don't understand why he gets to wipe everything clean and not have to be responsible for anything.
Don't get it.
Tuesday. Not much happens on Tuesday that is good. I'll start with my blessings, no snow today, even though there was also not really any sun. I had a good day at work as far as things go. Got J ok and we got home without too much delay. I don't know what is happening with my taxes but I do know that I'm still praying they get in before his do. I really need to get some of my bills paid. I don't understand why he gets to wipe everything clean and not have to be responsible for anything.
Don't get it.
Sunday, January 29, 2017
Sunday
January 29, 2017....
Stayed in my jammies in my room the entire day. I only left for food, bathroom breaks and laundry. I also managed to get a load of dishes done as well. I'm sad and I am confused and I really wish I didn't want to eat because I feel fat and boring and ugly. That's how my weekend went. Found out my love has told me twice now he won't talk to a certain person and I find out he spoke to her again. I'm so hurt. I don't understand what she has done for him in the past several months (she lives in another state) that she/her feelings are more important than mine. Why has she just like that become more important to him than me, the person he claims to love. Maybe more importantly what is wrong with me that the people I'm with never want to be with me. Am I really that boring? I'm invisible. Wish I could afford my therapy again.
Stayed in my jammies in my room the entire day. I only left for food, bathroom breaks and laundry. I also managed to get a load of dishes done as well. I'm sad and I am confused and I really wish I didn't want to eat because I feel fat and boring and ugly. That's how my weekend went. Found out my love has told me twice now he won't talk to a certain person and I find out he spoke to her again. I'm so hurt. I don't understand what she has done for him in the past several months (she lives in another state) that she/her feelings are more important than mine. Why has she just like that become more important to him than me, the person he claims to love. Maybe more importantly what is wrong with me that the people I'm with never want to be with me. Am I really that boring? I'm invisible. Wish I could afford my therapy again.
Wednesday, January 11, 2017
Wednesday..
January 11, 2017...
Well as of yesterday the asshole donor will get away with putting the 401k debt on his bankruptcy. I don't feel like I should have to pay for a lawyer to fight for a debt that I already won in court and he was court ordered to pay. The laws make no sense. The judge did nothing to protect me or my kids. I hate the whole thing but still refused to get a lawyer to fight for it again. He still wouldn't pay it and they still wouldn't make him. Oddly enough I'm now just hoping that Karma really screws him right over and leaves him homeless and broke and it can't happen soon enough. In the meantime I'm going on with my life and starting to try and think of things I can do on the side to make more money so I can get the dam bills paid and have money to do stuff, like fix my car when it breaks, or go out to eat at a real restaurant, buy groceries when I need them and not have to worry where to get the money. I don't know I just think I need to be putting my money else where and not into all these bills.
My credit is ok at the moment but I need to make sure that I am getting my bills paid in full and on time so that it will climb back up again. Thankfully I have been forced to work my full hours at work and my checks are bigger than they have ever been. I'm also going to cancel a few things so that the increase in my medical isn't as traumatic. I guess I'm just hoping to make it out of this year with more money than I came into it with. I don't really care what I have to do to get the bills paid I just want it done. I want to go to San Diego this year on vacation and possibly next year to Disney land and Hogwarts. I want to see the ocean and sit on the beach with a cocktail. I want to experience it with my love. I'm excited.
Well as of yesterday the asshole donor will get away with putting the 401k debt on his bankruptcy. I don't feel like I should have to pay for a lawyer to fight for a debt that I already won in court and he was court ordered to pay. The laws make no sense. The judge did nothing to protect me or my kids. I hate the whole thing but still refused to get a lawyer to fight for it again. He still wouldn't pay it and they still wouldn't make him. Oddly enough I'm now just hoping that Karma really screws him right over and leaves him homeless and broke and it can't happen soon enough. In the meantime I'm going on with my life and starting to try and think of things I can do on the side to make more money so I can get the dam bills paid and have money to do stuff, like fix my car when it breaks, or go out to eat at a real restaurant, buy groceries when I need them and not have to worry where to get the money. I don't know I just think I need to be putting my money else where and not into all these bills.
My credit is ok at the moment but I need to make sure that I am getting my bills paid in full and on time so that it will climb back up again. Thankfully I have been forced to work my full hours at work and my checks are bigger than they have ever been. I'm also going to cancel a few things so that the increase in my medical isn't as traumatic. I guess I'm just hoping to make it out of this year with more money than I came into it with. I don't really care what I have to do to get the bills paid I just want it done. I want to go to San Diego this year on vacation and possibly next year to Disney land and Hogwarts. I want to see the ocean and sit on the beach with a cocktail. I want to experience it with my love. I'm excited.
Saturday, January 7, 2017
Sunday
January 7, 2017..
Pretty great day today. Went to the At Home store and bought me the cutest frame. I think I'm gonna go back tomorrow and get Jazmin her frame for the Eiffel Tower picture she has had for awhile now. We need to get it hung up and off the floor. I may get me a couple more frames. Or I saw the cutest hooks that were owls. I was thinking getting it to put on the wall behind the door so people can hang there coats on them. They have so many things that I just love. I did my grocery shopping yesterday so I didn't have to do that but we did run some errands, got the oil changed in my car and a new air filter. My love takes such good care of me.
I made Chicken Yokisaba for dinner and it turned out wonderful. I don't go by the recipe but here is what I used for it. I was following a recipe as far as ingredients but I didn't use the proper measurements for the sauce and so forth. Here are the ingredients and I'll let you decide how much to use of everything. I will put measurements I remember from the recipe...
Chicken Yokisaba
2 Chicken Breast cut into thin strips
Broccoli chopped into bit size pieces
1/2 cabbage sliced into thin slices.
shredded carrots
T fresh ginger
1 small onion sliced in thin slices
2 pckgs ramen noodles
sauce
1/4 c soy sauce
1/4 Worcester sauce
2 t sugar
2 T ketchup
seasoning packets from the ramen
cook the sliced chicken in a little olive or peanut oil til not pink. add vegies and cook until tender.
meanwhile boil water and cook ramen noodles. (set seasoning aside for sauce) when noodles are tender 2-3 minutes drain and set aside.
Mix sauce ingredients and pour over vegies, meat, and noodles. mix and enjoy.
We all enjoyed and I've been picking at the leftovers all night. You all enjoy as well. I looked up the recipe on pinterest by searching "Chicken Yokisaba"
Pretty great day today. Went to the At Home store and bought me the cutest frame. I think I'm gonna go back tomorrow and get Jazmin her frame for the Eiffel Tower picture she has had for awhile now. We need to get it hung up and off the floor. I may get me a couple more frames. Or I saw the cutest hooks that were owls. I was thinking getting it to put on the wall behind the door so people can hang there coats on them. They have so many things that I just love. I did my grocery shopping yesterday so I didn't have to do that but we did run some errands, got the oil changed in my car and a new air filter. My love takes such good care of me.
I made Chicken Yokisaba for dinner and it turned out wonderful. I don't go by the recipe but here is what I used for it. I was following a recipe as far as ingredients but I didn't use the proper measurements for the sauce and so forth. Here are the ingredients and I'll let you decide how much to use of everything. I will put measurements I remember from the recipe...
Chicken Yokisaba
2 Chicken Breast cut into thin strips
Broccoli chopped into bit size pieces
1/2 cabbage sliced into thin slices.
shredded carrots
T fresh ginger
1 small onion sliced in thin slices
2 pckgs ramen noodles
sauce
1/4 c soy sauce
1/4 Worcester sauce
2 t sugar
2 T ketchup
seasoning packets from the ramen
cook the sliced chicken in a little olive or peanut oil til not pink. add vegies and cook until tender.
meanwhile boil water and cook ramen noodles. (set seasoning aside for sauce) when noodles are tender 2-3 minutes drain and set aside.
Mix sauce ingredients and pour over vegies, meat, and noodles. mix and enjoy.
We all enjoyed and I've been picking at the leftovers all night. You all enjoy as well. I looked up the recipe on pinterest by searching "Chicken Yokisaba"
Friday, January 6, 2017
Friday
January 6, 2017...
Finally Friday!! As though I worked a full week or something ha! Today started out pretty brutal.
I either turned the alarm off or it didn't go off I woke up at 650. Yes I do work at 6. ahhhhhhhh
I made a mad dash at got there by 730. I have no idea what they will do to me but I really have no idea what happened. I can't change it though so I have to just laugh and move on. I guess my co worker did the same thing but managed to rush and still make it on time. My body didn't wake me up either which was weird. I have been exhausted though.
The weekend is finally here. I love Friday because it's the furthest day from Monday of the weekend. No plans but maybe I can get some scrapbooking in or something. I was supposed to pick up my 25 dollar gift card that I won but I totally spaced it. Oh well we shall get it on Monday. Yuck Monday....
Fam is all the same. Doing the same ole same ole. We are all recovering or trying to stave off the dreaded head cold. It's been going on forever and I feel as though I'll never be rid of the cough. My lungs hurt from coughing. I would think I would be getting abs from all the contracting of my stomach muscles while coughing. My tongue even hurts from coughing.
Hopefully it will be gone soon but my love says his lungs hurt when he breathes so I hope he is not getting pneumonia or bronchitis. He of course says he's fine. The lies we tell ourselves to prevent going to the Dr. Need to make a shopping list and go grocery shopping. What a dreaded chore. I really don't like grocery shopping. It's so tedious and expensive. When you are done you are so exhausted that you don't want to cook the food you just bought, you want someone to bring you food while you lay in your jammies and cuddle up watching Netflix.
Life is expensive really.
Finally Friday!! As though I worked a full week or something ha! Today started out pretty brutal.
I either turned the alarm off or it didn't go off I woke up at 650. Yes I do work at 6. ahhhhhhhh
I made a mad dash at got there by 730. I have no idea what they will do to me but I really have no idea what happened. I can't change it though so I have to just laugh and move on. I guess my co worker did the same thing but managed to rush and still make it on time. My body didn't wake me up either which was weird. I have been exhausted though.
The weekend is finally here. I love Friday because it's the furthest day from Monday of the weekend. No plans but maybe I can get some scrapbooking in or something. I was supposed to pick up my 25 dollar gift card that I won but I totally spaced it. Oh well we shall get it on Monday. Yuck Monday....
Fam is all the same. Doing the same ole same ole. We are all recovering or trying to stave off the dreaded head cold. It's been going on forever and I feel as though I'll never be rid of the cough. My lungs hurt from coughing. I would think I would be getting abs from all the contracting of my stomach muscles while coughing. My tongue even hurts from coughing.
Hopefully it will be gone soon but my love says his lungs hurt when he breathes so I hope he is not getting pneumonia or bronchitis. He of course says he's fine. The lies we tell ourselves to prevent going to the Dr. Need to make a shopping list and go grocery shopping. What a dreaded chore. I really don't like grocery shopping. It's so tedious and expensive. When you are done you are so exhausted that you don't want to cook the food you just bought, you want someone to bring you food while you lay in your jammies and cuddle up watching Netflix.
Life is expensive really.
Thursday, January 5, 2017
Thursday
January 5, 2017...
Second day back to work after the holidays. Next week is going to seem really long. We were busy as all get out today so glad that we were all there to take the calls or it could have been horrifying. Debbie even came in early to help the service levels. (we don't know what the service levels are except they are usually bad when one of us is gone.) My cough was horrendous but I made it through my shift and didn't lose my voice or hack away in anyone's ear so I guess it went pretty good.
I'm feeling really insecure lately. I just keep gaining weight and I'm doing nothing different than I always do. Not doing so good on my exercising though but I swear I almost wish I was still all riddled with anxiety so I could shed the pounds again. Ahhh I guess we'll do anything to be thin won't we? I just miss being able to move better I guess. Plus my love keeps talking to his women friends and I know I should not be jealous but I so am. I know he loves me and what not but I don't know what sign it is to these other single ladies when he makes it ok for them to call him and text him whenever they want, I feel like they feel he isn't happy in his relationship and who knows what that might lead to. I guess I'm just not ready to find that I'm being replaced again and that's how it makes me feel. Yesterday he even was going to borrow money to one of them for her rent. REALLY you just call some man and ask him to pay your rent?!? And he was going to borrow it to her. Not a word to me. I know it's not my money it's his but we are supposed to be together so you would think he would at least pass it by me but no. None of my business is what I take from it, although he says it's no big deal because her check showed up and she could pay her own rent. crisis averted. Except it's not our crisis it's some other woman's crisis. See I'm awful.
The snow fell hard last night, took me almost an hour to clean off my car and get to work. I wasn't late thank god but it sure was the wonderful commute. Saw several bad accidents although my car handled it like a pro and I was safely there and home. Now I need to go out and shovel but having only a couple hours of sleep I'm already exhausted.
Second day back to work after the holidays. Next week is going to seem really long. We were busy as all get out today so glad that we were all there to take the calls or it could have been horrifying. Debbie even came in early to help the service levels. (we don't know what the service levels are except they are usually bad when one of us is gone.) My cough was horrendous but I made it through my shift and didn't lose my voice or hack away in anyone's ear so I guess it went pretty good.
I'm feeling really insecure lately. I just keep gaining weight and I'm doing nothing different than I always do. Not doing so good on my exercising though but I swear I almost wish I was still all riddled with anxiety so I could shed the pounds again. Ahhh I guess we'll do anything to be thin won't we? I just miss being able to move better I guess. Plus my love keeps talking to his women friends and I know I should not be jealous but I so am. I know he loves me and what not but I don't know what sign it is to these other single ladies when he makes it ok for them to call him and text him whenever they want, I feel like they feel he isn't happy in his relationship and who knows what that might lead to. I guess I'm just not ready to find that I'm being replaced again and that's how it makes me feel. Yesterday he even was going to borrow money to one of them for her rent. REALLY you just call some man and ask him to pay your rent?!? And he was going to borrow it to her. Not a word to me. I know it's not my money it's his but we are supposed to be together so you would think he would at least pass it by me but no. None of my business is what I take from it, although he says it's no big deal because her check showed up and she could pay her own rent. crisis averted. Except it's not our crisis it's some other woman's crisis. See I'm awful.
The snow fell hard last night, took me almost an hour to clean off my car and get to work. I wasn't late thank god but it sure was the wonderful commute. Saw several bad accidents although my car handled it like a pro and I was safely there and home. Now I need to go out and shovel but having only a couple hours of sleep I'm already exhausted.
Monday, January 2, 2017
Monday
January 2, 2016...
Well Happy New Year to us!! We have both been sick our entire weekend and didn't party on New Years. In fact we didn't even stay up long after 12. The fever has been awful and hopefully will be gone now. Just a headache, sinuses and a cough left behind.
Guess we'll have that over with and we can move on to a healthier new year. I would like to work out more, pay off my bills, and go on a vacation. We are thinking San Diego. The beach, my love can show me around his old stomping grounds since he used to live there with his dad. Sounds wonderful to me. Then maybe Hogwarts and Disney land next year. Just have to be a penny pincher and put everything I can into savings. If I can get one bill paid I can use that payment to pay down another bill and so on and so forth until they are all gone. I can't wait to reach that goal. I also want us to go more places with the girl and make more memories as a family. Perhaps camping or something when N gets out.
I think every year with my love is wonderful. Living my dreams. I love him so much. I was taking care of him fri - sunday but when he saw I was sick to he got up and made me dinner. No other guy I've been with has done that. He's been taking care of me all day. I love him more and more. I hope we get to grow old together.
Well Happy New Year to us!! We have both been sick our entire weekend and didn't party on New Years. In fact we didn't even stay up long after 12. The fever has been awful and hopefully will be gone now. Just a headache, sinuses and a cough left behind.
Guess we'll have that over with and we can move on to a healthier new year. I would like to work out more, pay off my bills, and go on a vacation. We are thinking San Diego. The beach, my love can show me around his old stomping grounds since he used to live there with his dad. Sounds wonderful to me. Then maybe Hogwarts and Disney land next year. Just have to be a penny pincher and put everything I can into savings. If I can get one bill paid I can use that payment to pay down another bill and so on and so forth until they are all gone. I can't wait to reach that goal. I also want us to go more places with the girl and make more memories as a family. Perhaps camping or something when N gets out.
I think every year with my love is wonderful. Living my dreams. I love him so much. I was taking care of him fri - sunday but when he saw I was sick to he got up and made me dinner. No other guy I've been with has done that. He's been taking care of me all day. I love him more and more. I hope we get to grow old together.
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