wednesday

February 1, 2017....


    Supposed to be the month of love.  Welcome February, I hope you bring an early Spring. I'm so tired of being cold. I'm ready to work out in the dirt and grow flowers and vegies.  I'm ready for sunshine on my skin. Today is gray as usual. It's also very cold and smoggy. We are supposed to get more rain and snow starting tomorrow I guess. Yay..... not
    Don't really remember what I wrote last night but I know I was livid. Still waiting to hear if my taxes cleared. Not sure what is taking that so long but I haven't gotten the accepted email yet. Usually my return is on its way by now. I'm scared Donor is gonna get that credit as well.   He already gets out of paying every living thing as far as bills and houses go. Now he's living with his brother and not even paying his rent anymore. whatever.   He'll never admit to the damage he's done and he'll never stand up and pay it anyway. I hope I get the tax credit.   Our papers every other year or "to who it best serves" well that is definitely me since I'm still paying all my bills instead of shirking my responsibilities. I hope Karma kicks his ass good because he is so not a good person.
     I need to leave it to God because it's driving me to higher levels of anxiety. I also need to talk to my doctor about getting a higher dose of anxiety meds because this one doesn't seem to be working so well anymore.  I'm falling a part and getting old.