Thursday

September 22, 2016........


     The weather has taken a drastic turn for the worse. Todays high, rather than the normal 90s, was
79 degrees. I think by the time I got home from therapy it had dropped dramatically except the wind had picked up so it could have just been the wind chill. I'm still waiting for any good rain. So far there has just been sprinkling.
      I got myself all worked up over traffic but I really just can't stand stupid drivers. People are driving down the freeway, in stop and go traffic, checking out their phones. Taking selfies. Texting. Doing there makeup. When I finally get in a lane that is moving I am cut off by people crossing the double lines out of the carpool lane. People driving in the passing lane going 50 so the people actually trying to pass have to get around that person as well.
      Then there are the people who are riding my ass when there is clearly no place for me to go. Really people I want out as much as you but you don't need to hitch a ride. I'm stressed out enough. It just puts me in a really bad mood. They act like they are doing the world a favor by going slow when in reality we are all trying not to die getting around them so we don't get hit from behind. Then of course are my absolute favorite people.  The ones who get in the straight only lane and regardless of signs, and the fact the rest of us have waited patiently to be in the turning lane, they just turn right into you giving you no choice but to let them in and hold up everyone and cause those of us obeying the laws to get backed up have to wait longer. Rant over....
      Work was pretty busy all day. I was really, really glad when two o'clock came around and I could finally vacate the premises. I really need to decide what my passion is because I'm so tired of hating my job. I don't like always wondering what the day will bring. I want to know like I used to. I want to go in and enjoy being there like I used to.
     Home is good. Other than K always and forever thinking I am obligated to pick him up. It's right up the road for god's sake why can he not just walk?!?!!  I used to walk all over the place. If I didn't want to walk I took the bus. I didn't get my first car until I was 23 and pregnant with my first kid. He has lived here for 2 years and hasn't saved anything for a car, or a place of his own. ugh.. he'll be here forever
      I'm on one today.. better go try and make myself calm down.