Sunday April 27, 2014...


   Bittersweet Sunday.  Love that I have the day off but sad I have to work tomorrow. If only the week didn't go so slow.  If only my life was already moved on and I didn't have to fear the future. Ahhh well can't have everything you want I suppose.
    I am grateful to have gotten a few things done even if not what I really wanted to get done.  Oh well, it's ok it's not going to kill me to just relax.  I wish I could get some divine inspiration for my future though.  I really need to figure it out soon.  It would have been better to have found a better paying job by now.  Since I have not my only choice is to keep looking.
    The day may have been rainy but it has ended sunny with fairly blue sky. I am hoping that it gets warmer soon.  I'm tired of the rain and cold.  I really need to get some sun and let it help put my head in the right place.  
     Grateful to have a job and grateful for the chance to pay for most of my life myself.  Grateful to have my kids and my family and friends. I may not have much of a life but I'm grateful for what I do have.   No matter how much I don't have I do have hope and my faith my be at it's breaking point but I want to believe in a future of happiness and I want to believe I can get there on my own.