Tuesday May 20, 2014....


     Tomorrow is the big day!!! I am all smiles and I am sure that tomorrow being the final court day is has something to do with it but more importantly.....
      I have reconnected with an old friend who has always been just a friend and although he doesn't remember or get it, I have always found him to be honorable and respectful.  He has always been really, really good to me.  I don't know how else to say it.  My mom of course hates him.  Well hate may be to strong a word but she doesn't like him.  More to the point she doesn't like me being with anyone.  She wants me to be alone like her.  It's a problem.  I need my own place. I don't want to be alone.  I will if I have to be but Id rather have someone around who makes me smile like he does.
      He's in St. George , UT working and we text and talk.  I need to be able to go on with my  life but don't want to do anything but sit and think about him and smile.  I don't even remember the last time I was this happy.
I hope it doesn't end, but if it does at least I have had a relief from the sadness.
     Smile!!!