Tuesday

December 27, 2016....


    Been to lazy to get on but the holiday was a success. My love and I spent the day with our girls and although we didn't have any of the boys it was still enjoyable for the most part. I have loved having 4 days off and I am already looking forward to next weekend, another long one and I'm hoping I got the 2nd off as well although I don't think they have loaded that week yet.  For some reason it won't let me log into the page to check my schedule so I'm assuming they are working on it now. Hopefully we will find out soon.
   Kids are all good. B is back home until august and is looking for a full time job so she can save up money to pay for the next semester, although I think she should save up for a couple semesters so she doesn't have to worry about it for awhile.   Too much stress while at school working on your homework and what not. T is doing good and he is still living in Oregon and K is now visiting there for the holidays but will be back in a couple days. He won't like that we are raising the rent but maybe it will give him the push he needs. I don't know. He needs to get out and get living his life.
   Other kids are all doing good as far as I know. J goes to her donor tomorrow and will stay with him until next Sunday poor thing, glad it's not me that has to be with him.   He's such a sorry excuse for a man. He's contesting that my claim to the 401k money isn't true and is wanting to change it to an unsecured debt which he could then add to the bankruptcy that was done last year.   I wasn't going after the money because I don't have money for another lawyer and court costs but it doesn't seem fair to me that I can be awarded something in court and he can just have it dissolved because he can't stand up and take responsibility for his actions. Why do I and my kids have to suffer so that he has no consequences for the cheating, lying, stealing, mental and emotional abuse?  Why does he get to just walk away from it free and clear and happy.  I tell you I feel like I must be a really horrible person since I did  nothing this time but have my heart broken. How long will I have to suffer for my past mistakes and why doesn't he have to pay what he is supposed to?  I'm paying off loans that I never should of had to get. I'll be paying my 401k loan for another 5 years. What did I get for it?  A lawyer who did nothing to stand up for me. It's the principal of the thing. He should have to pay for his own mistakes. I shouldn't have to.