Thursday November 21, 2013...

   Thankful for having a day off in the middle of the week.  Wish it hadn't been such winter weather but it is that time of year I supposed.  Today was a suffocating day though, with dark clouds pressing down upon me, crushing my lungs.  I made it through though, and although I didn't accomplish much , I did accomplish a few things and that is alright.
     I am getting Christmas fever even though I have no money to get Christmas with.  I really wish I could figure out a way to make money on the side. I know there has to be something, someway.  I'll keep praying and thinking positive thoughts and I 'm sure something will come to me.
     We are having Thanksgiving at our house this year, I hope it is ok with everyone but I think that it would mean a lot to the kids and especially Jazmin to have it here with it being our last year in this house.
     I am thankful we have been able to experience having our own place, with our own yard and space for our pets.   The house has always been leaving a lot to desire in the space department in general but I am grateful to be out of the wind, rain, snow and cold.  I am thankful to have a job to be able to pay the heat bill and I am thankful to have a steady paycheck no matter how small it is.  Some people don't have anything at all.
     I am thankful for the experiences I have had, even if they haven't all been good, I am learning and growing and becoming stronger than I ever thought I could be.  I will surpass this phase and move toward a brighter tomorrow.  I will do it with a smile on my face and a grateful heart and soul.  The stresses they will come and go, but I will remain looking forward and every day trying to make myself a better person, to find who I want to be.