Wednesday March 26, 2014...


   I don't know the year.  Yesterday I was using 2013.. today I type in 2015.  I wish it were 2015 because I'd be past the divorce and on with my life.  Hopefully by 2015 it will be much better.
    Today was great while I was at work.  What was that?  Yes I did just say that.  It wasn't overly busy, the people weren't too awful, in fact I think there was only one person who was actually mad when I answered and they were ok when we got off the phone.  I got to test the ivr the last 2 hours of my shift so that was a nice change and then it was time to go and that's always a happy moment.
     Then I get off work and there are missed messages from every school known to man, and one from my mother freaking out because my ex picked up my daughter after school again instead of waiting until I got her home.  So I ask if I can have some notice on that and he starts freaking out.  Then I got my son's report card and he failed a class he needed to pass.  My head feels as though it may explode.
      Trying to smile...  Trying not to freak out and ruin my night..... wondering why things never get better.  What can I do to make that happen?