Wednesday March 4, 2014....


    So today is a beautiful day.  It's sunny and somewhat warm. They let me out early because It's my weekend so it still doesn't feel like you are getting a day off because they make you work most of the day first.  I still have to work six days this week no matter how many times they send me home early.  I'll just be grateful for the extra time to enjoy the sunshine and hope that everything turn out well in the end.
     I have smiled quite a few times today.  I think I have spent most of my day, day dreaming though. Wishing I would miraculously find some sort of job I could do from home, data entry wise and not customer service wise. Don't want to be chained to a phone although I wouldn't mind doing some sort of customer service job if it was email or chat so that I am not chained to a phone.  Anyone out there know of anything like that?  I know there fore the day dream.  I just want to have a place to call my own where I won't be thrown into the streets at any given moment .
    Happiness isn't hard if you can just get your mind to cooperate with you. I try so hard to forget about things, not stress about things I can't control (which is pretty much everything) but here I am a mass of knots and no relief in sight and I have no idea what is going on.  The tension is a mystery to me. Butterflies in my stomach... it all usually means my life is about to crash down around me.
      Guess I should be getting better prepared to be moving out and be homeless.   Again.  Anyone out there in this big world reading this that knows of any legitimate home jobs for data entry please message me info  :)
      When I'm making enough to say no thanks to anyone's help I'll be happy as a can be.  What to do?  What to do?