Sunday December 1, 2013.....

    Last day of the wonderful long weekend.   I didn't much of anything this weekend, playing with my kids, spending time with family, cooking, got bills paid.  My car just keeps getting more issues but is still running, we'll hope that it keeps running for a few more months atleast.   I don't know what else to do with it.
      I bought a couple more presents, nothing big just something little for Kaleb and a present for my son.  Wish I could figure out a way to earn a little bit more for Christmas presents, and to figure out my car.   Oh well deep breath and keep plugging along.
       Today I slept in but woke with a smile.   The sky was blue and the sun was out most of the morning.  Didn't do much of anything except laundry and dishes.
     I made some Christmas cards and got those ready to mail.  I did some grocery shopping although I really have no money for groceries. I think we will be ok until midweek when I will start getting nervous about groceries all over again.  I try not to stress anymore, it drains my happiness and makes me feel bad, but sometimes it all just presses down on you.
      Seems like everyday is a new problem, a new trial, or test.   I think so far I am managing them all ok.  I like to think that I am a pretty strong person, and with god by my side I think I should be able to conquer about anything.  I am just praying that I will find my path in life and that I will find the love of my life.  
      I am thankful for my kids and the joy they bring me, I am thankful we were able to have a Happy Holiday with enough food to feed everyone. I am thankful for my job and the pay check it provides.  I am thankful for being born in the place I was, so that I could know what it was like to be poor from the start.  I am thankful we had enough on my check to pay the bills and get some more food.  I am thankful to have a full tank of gas in my car.   I am thankful I was able to share in several Family events this weekend, I am thankful that my family and friends still love me and appreciate me even while I am broken.   I am thankful for heat and power, water and internet.   I am thankful I have all my friends and co workers helping me out with staying positive.   I am thankful for my hearing, speech, sight, touch, and taste.
      I am thankful for the million things God does for me each day that I don't even know about.  I am thankful for the people who I knew and loved before they passed on to another life. I am thankful for the ability to read and write, and I am thankful for the passion to do both.  I am thankful for the ability to do what I like to do in my free time and to reach for my goals and hopes and dreams at my leisure.
      I am thankful that I have chosen to find peace and happiness instead of focusing on the pain and betrayal.  I am thankful that slowly the peace is coming to heal my wounds and help make me strong for the road ahead.