Monday October 8, 2013....

    Well today was a Monday in every sense.  I woke up late and had to call in late at work.  Work itself was busy as usual, but I sold some stuff and won some prizes so that was cool.  It's customer service week so we get to dress down which means I get to wear my sweats, another piece of coolness.  I am off tomorrow which helped today not be so sucky, and well hopefully the rest of the week isn't too awfully bad.
     I lost my temper a couple of times but still managed to keep the "idiots" to myself and took a few deep breaths reminding myself of the patience I am supposed to have so that I am not as raged as usual.  All in all I think it might be working ok for the second day.  Keep smiling I tell myself.  Hard to be angry while smiling.
     I suppose I should also find things to be thankful for because if you are thankful I think it would also be hard to feel so much like a victim and have so much anger inside.
    Today I am thankful for the sun and blue skies, also I am thankful for my kids and the way they make me laugh.  I am thankful how good they are even though they sometimes drive my nuts, and most of all I'm thankful God trusted them to me even though I probably don't deserve it.
     I am thankful for having gas in my car to get to work and for having food to feed my kids. I am thankful that even when I have nothing we still manage to make it to the next day.
      October has begun, I love this month even though I try to avoid thinking about the recent past and what this month means to me in that regard.  The fall leaves are beautiful so I'll be thankful that I get to see the wonderful colors not too mention how much my daughter loves to play in the just raked leaves.