Wednesday October 23, 2013....


     You might trip me up but you can't break me.  I may be low now but I will claw my way to a better life and when I get to the top of everything I'll be looking down at you alone and miserable and wondering how on earth you ever lost me.
     I haven't written for a couple days because after all, this is my journey to happiness, but everyday is not sunshine and rainbows and when you can't feed your children, put gas in the car to get to work, or even put money in your child's lunch account, knowing they will be turned away for lunch right there in front of all their friends, while someone is off eating $10. steaks instead of paying their support payments,  you tend to feel a little less than happy.
     Today has not been better but for the blessings of friends, and a long hot shower, I am feeling much happier at the moment. 
    I am grateful to have food to feed my children one more meal, (all thanks to my mom who gave us some of her food) grateful for a warm, dry place to sleep.
    Especially grateful to have a job to go to everyday to earn money to attempt a life for my children and a car to get there.
    I am grateful for my friend, who even though she has nothing still finds it in her heart to help me with money for my daughters lunch account so she isn't hungry and embarrassed.   I have sure found out who my real friends are and left many behind, but then, isn't that what happens when trials make us stand tall?