Wednesday October 30, 2013....

    Halloween Eve. My daughter is ecstatic.  Dressing up as a zombie cheerleader. She loves it as much as I do.  We have her parade in the morning then back in the afternoon to help with the Halloween party. We are making paper plate ghosts.  Should be fun.  Last year we made spiders.
 I hope the kids enjoy it as much.  I am not in charge of it this year , which is fine with me because it's a lot of work.
    I have the day off as a floating Holiday.  Can't wait.  Paid for 8 hours and don't even have to be there.   Love Halloween!
    Today I am grateful that it didn't snow , only rain.  I am grateful I finally got some money in my account, I am grateful to have a roof over my kids head and a warm place for them to sleep, at least for now.  Grateful I had food to feed them and a pay check on the way.
     I am grateful that the work day finally ended, and as always I am grateful for my family and friends. I am grateful for holidays to look forward to and mark the seasons with memories.  I am grateful I have a camera to capture the memories and a computer to share the memories with. 
     I am grateful for the season even though I may not like them all. I am grateful I have a job and friends to pass the day with.  I am grateful my car is running so I can get to work.
    I am grateful that as of yet I don't have to stand on a corner holding a sign and begging for money.  I am grateful I have people who care about me, and wouldn't let us sleep out under the overpass. I am grateful that no matter what tomorrow brings, I can still smile because I have the love of my children , my family, and friends.  I can have Faith that God will watch over me and lead my life in the right direction.
    I am grateful I am out of a relationship that only brought me down and never lifted me up with praise or appreciation.  I am grateful that I lived through it as unscathed as I did. 
     I am grateful that this quest is bringing me peace and helping me handle new stress a little more gracefully than I used to.  Still a challenge I need to work on, and I'm sure I still have a long way to go, but I am starting to see change and I even recognize when I relapse into the depression and anger.  One day at a time.  Smile and deep breath.....