Thursday..

  April 14, 2016...


   Don't think L has been to work at all this week.  Oh wait one day.  My head has been hurting non stop and I really can't live like this anymore. Today he's drilling holes in my comforter and wall downstairs.  It's ok. Why wouldn't that be ok.  I have really gotten myself into it this time. I really don't know what to do but I can't live like this. I tried to get my anxiety meds filled but my Dr. is "on a break" until the 2nd of May.  Good times. It's only chest pains that make me feel like I'm dying but hey, that's alright.
  I'm so confused right now that I really wish the end would come.  I'm just so tired of it all.  The pain, the fog in my brain, the stomach aches and head aches. I think the chest pain is the worst though. I really want to know what I did to deserve this. I really don't think I'm that bad of a person for wanting to be able to live in my own home without the aid of medication or the pain of the anxiety attacks. I'm probably wrong though because I often am.